i'm kind of cock up right here.

dunno what am i thinking right now.

he didn't tell me somethings. which is neccesary that makes me so damn turn off larhs

i really dunno how to believe you furthermore.

i wanted to..but how?

you should tell me yourself, and not i have to ask you then you tell.

you haven come out. so i'm just planning to ask you.

to check whether you really will tell the truth not.

hopefully, you would just say the truth out.

it really turns me off at times when this kind of small matters makes me blows up.

i hope i could trust you but you makes me feel jealous and unsecure.

WHY??!!! i'm really not sure about you.

you are discharging very soon, i should be happy for you.

but i'm not. i'm worried. hearing about your past makes me scared.

WHY? i dunno either.

i know it's the past, i'm trying to ignore it as much as i could.

but no matter how, the trust isn't there at all.

i dun wanna trust anyone. not a single one.

so why can't you just let me trying to trust you without any reason?

does all the things that you said is sweet talks?

does it mean something to you or what?

i need someone to tell me what i need to do?!!!

i so fcuking stress right now!

HHHHHEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPP!!!~~~

this isn't what i want from you.

this is not what i want from the start

all i wanted is to make things right.

thats all i want.

i wanted to let go, i dunno why.

but i'm afraid to hurt both of us.

i really dunno what to do.

I"M SO TURN OFF!!!!

HEY! now in school. doing nothing much

ohhh!~ i'm so STUPID larhs.

today started school at 8am as per normal. but I THOUGHT it started at 10am

ji tao die le lorhs. WA!!! really got something wrong with my stupid brain siol.

anw, sunday fetch my boyfriend back to HOSTEL.

felt aching when i had to see him just when off.

i swear not to fetch him back anymore.

dun wanna feel the pain. started to get fragile day by day.

his discharging soon. YEAH!!~ so guess his the one waiting for me to come out le

GOT SOME BAD NEWS HERE.

the fish that i brought for him for our anniversary had DIED!!!

WTH!!! what a pity siol.

he said he wanna buy the same exact fish.

wondering is he joking not. LOLS!

hais. really feel so boring without him.

also found out that actually, MY friend is her EX BOYFRIEND.

what a coincident HUH? got to ask him when he come out for his LAST HOMELEAVE.

next week, he will be having some compeition being held in PUGGOL.

hope he will win HUH. & loss all his fats....

he got to have more exercise alright..

hope WE could come out this week.

TRYING to behave myself.

just came out from hostel.
this week will come out from thursday till monday.
ji tao shuang dao...
hmms, richard still haven come out.
sian lerhs.
dunno whether he come out on friday or saturday.
hopefully is friday evening barhs.
so long didnt blog le lorhs.
guess going to die soon. anw, many things happen
dun really bother so much.
this week maybe meeting some friends.
now school holiday but didn't really enjoying.
every single day got extra lesson.
tomorrow also got. tired lerhs.
hmms, now going to post the present that last week i gave richard.

now currently in school. super tired. WTH!

anyway, yesterday saw him but didn't wanna make a glance.

afraid that i couldn't turn back after that.

dunno why still thinks of him.

OUR MEMORIES, OUR TIMES.

do miss it so much. but i guess he didn't care after all.

i just need to just take a break right now.

i still do miss you the same as the past.

btw aunty tracy yesterday night told me something about HIM.

why? why do i still care so much?

i really dunno.

it's been 5 months since we broke up, and i still can't get over with it.

still holding on to a hope on him.

okayokay. i just got to stop all this.

it's just time to grow up, right?

hmms, today i should be going home.

i guess soo.

still doing my crystal ball but planned to change to a FISH TANK!!

could imagine it. it's like super cute larhs.OMG!

in the progress of it right now...

done with the tank but still need the PHOTOS to complete it...

guess tomorrow would be done.

IF i get to go home today.

PRAY HARD.....

now looking for a suitable fish to put in my little fish tank.

SUPER DUPER excited...

hope it would be a success.

LOLS. currently in school doing DnT project.

so thought of posting sommethings to kill time.

guess my blog is dying soon, SUPER DUPER SOON!!!

now searching for crystal ball. planned to do a hand make one..

kind of excited. didn't make before. LOLS.

would be posting the final work after i had done.

i would be getting some help from my teacher.

hope it would be a success.

hmms, FATHER'S DAY is round the corner.

hopefully, my friends are getting ready for their present.

HAHA. first time celebrating with my dad.

hope it would be a success

still got 2 more days to go till HOMELEAVE?

i guess. hope so. needed to rush for the crystal ball thingy.

wish me good luck alright.