Thursday, June 25, 2009
i'm kind of cock up right here.
dunno what am i thinking right now.
he didn't tell me somethings. which is neccesary that makes me so damn turn off larhs
i really dunno how to believe you furthermore.
i wanted to..but how?
you should tell me yourself, and not i have to ask you then you tell.
you haven come out. so i'm just planning to ask you.
to check whether you really will tell the truth not.
hopefully, you would just say the truth out.
it really turns me off at times when this kind of small matters makes me blows up.
i hope i could trust you but you makes me feel jealous and unsecure.
WHY??!!! i'm really not sure about you.
you are discharging very soon, i should be happy for you.
but i'm not. i'm worried. hearing about your past makes me scared.
WHY? i dunno either.
i know it's the past, i'm trying to ignore it as much as i could.
but no matter how, the trust isn't there at all.
i dun wanna trust anyone. not a single one.
so why can't you just let me trying to trust you without any reason?
does all the things that you said is sweet talks?
does it mean something to you or what?
i need someone to tell me what i need to do?!!!
i so fcuking stress right now!
HHHHHEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPP!!!~~~
this isn't what i want from you.
this is not what i want from the start
all i wanted is to make things right.
thats all i want.
i wanted to let go, i dunno why.
but i'm afraid to hurt both of us.
i really dunno what to do.
I"M SO TURN OFF!!!!
