Saturday, October 31, 2009
back to blogging again
yesterday night quarrel with PEPPER.
it was really a BIG one
ended up, sleeping at my friend place.
PATHETIC FREAK HUH?
no choice. i just dun feel like facing PEPPER.
he's just so freaking spoil mood can.
actually, it's still hurt to see him in this manner.
but it's my attitude.
i'm sorry for making you so disappointed.
& it's really my fault for talkng to you in this manner.
but please, think about me can't you?
why do you have to always because of money issue quarrelling with me?
isn't it unfair?
i tried to control my money problem.
i really did, but just can't you see it?
you said i was troublesome.
but do you actually think of my feelings?
if you wasn't that demanding and that attitude problem.
maybe we wont be in this manner.
do you know how proud i was to had you as my father?
i even told my friends how wonderful you are.
& they even envy me for having such a relaxing father.
but think... i had my sense of responsible.
i know how much suffer you had been through.
the pain is always killing me.
do you know that? seems that you dun.
we always had conflicts. WHY?
not because we are not mend to be
but beacuse we always think for ourselves.
that's our problem
i tried to make you understand me.
by telling you all the sorows and happiness that i've been through.
but do you know that?
you said you wanted to protect me.
seems that nothing was shown but LOVE.
you always asked me to be what you wanted.
i've tried and i really did.
but every little mistake i've done will always make you pull my performance down.
DAD, everyone will makes mistake and you knew it.
like the mistake of you being with MUMMY at the beginning.
you regretted it for your action.
& i did too regretted my action.
so why not you just open a big heart and accept for what i am.
cause after all, i'm your daughter.
