Monday, November 16, 2009
i'm sorry for showing my temper today.
wasn't really meant to throw my tantrum on you.
guess something wasn't right today.
friends been telling me all sort of thing.
and yes, i was affected.
i'm afraid that we wont be like how we are now in future.
i'm afraid that i can't be hugging you in future.
& also i'm afraid that you wasn't there to comfort me when i feel scared.
the things that i've told you wasn't scaring you.
just that i'm afraid that it would happen.
i'm trying to distract those words from my mind.
but i can't. I'M SORRY!
maybe i'm just thinking too much.
BI, i love you so so much.
but still i'm afraid.
to get hurt again.
the feeling is been killing me every single time.
& i can't stand it.
this time round, i'm afraid too.
i can't imagine if one day i had to let you go.
i really can't afford to lose you.
maybe this is the time for me to scan through my brain
to think of how to not get disturb by words.
i really look forward for us to me together as long as we are.
hopefully, i wont get affected.
BI, i will be waiting for you to come out.
rest assume that i wont flirt around although i was pulling your leg saying that i will.
just wanna see your face.
so BI, do have trust in me.
i loved you so much.
how on earth would i bear to leave you?
as long as you dun leave me.
i will be so happy already.
