I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND

2010-04-21T12:10:00.002+08:00

does adults always look so fake in front of outsiders?

these few months, i really looked clear of what my boyfriend parents are.

FAKERS!

the father, was just someone that only cares for his small little daughter.

no matter how wrong his daughter is, he will never blame her for it.

instead baming others.

been always nagging at my boyfriend in whatever things.

the main thing is, what have he see us doing a part in the house?

answer is : NOTHING!

he thinks that all we are capable of is eating and sleeping.

sometimes, when we help to do some household chorus.

he will still insist that we dun.

because, he works from the morning to the middle of the night.

how on earth he will see it with his own eyes.

people in my boyfriend family are selfish!

they do things without my boyfriend.

they clean the house, without cleaning my boyfriend's

what is this? i thought family should help one another?

but i dun see it in this family.

they expect my boyfriend to help them do things,

but they dun help him.

sometimes, i felt pity for him abit.

why do people never see the good points?

and always judge in the bad points?

i am a outsider of the family, i cant do much.

but this father of his will never realise how good his son is.

how much his son had do.

all he does is to throw temper on his son.

even his father himself dun even know what he really wanted and expected from his very own son.

if he claim that the mother is not good, then what about him?

saying his own son useless, saying whatever hurt his son.

then what is the use of being a father of 3 child?

when you yourself will never undertstand them.

and do you counted as a man when you dun pay for the house bills and expect you wife to do it?

being your wife and child is hard.

i am really glad i'm not your child.

but think of you like me feel sickning.

you dun ever realise how much pain you had caused to your son.

never you will realise.

cause all you think is YOURSELF!

2010-04-20T01:36:00.002+08:00

Joverst Lee arh, Joverst Lee.

i really dunno how on earth to believe you anymore.

things that i saw and things that you said is so much different.

you said you helped me rebirth, but it still remain the same.

you said facebook added friends on it self when you did not add them nor accept them.

but why does my facebook dun and yours will.

the people in the server said there is no roll back, den why only mine.

STOP ALL THE NONSENSE!

they are just bullshit.

ONCE A LIAR, ALWAYS WILL....

i'm in great disappointment in you.

how can i convince myself to believe your ridiculous stories?

why dun you have the guts to just tell me the truth, instead of telling lies.

and expect me to believe you?

i'm not a 3 years old kid ok?!

and by crying, you can make me believe you?

you had no proof for what you done.

if you dun wanna help me train, say it straight to my face!

dun lie to me and tell me you did.

but the fact is, you are training your account!

peoples are selfish, i can understand.

but you lying to me, and try to make yourself confident,

is out of the question. cause after all.

you told me, you were once a liar.

everyone does lie in their life, but just a small things you wanna lie about it?

what a nonsense!

you lie but you get nothing, once i believe in you.

but when i recall back, i was a fool.

it breaks my heart to realise everything.

if the past had become the past.

then things should meant to change, then i had face it.

but all i could say is...

Joverst Lee wasn't the past anymore.

Cassandra wasn't the fool in the past anymore.

so said the truth den to lie, as you will gain nothing.

why must you be among the same group of guys as them?

maybe the answer is there, because they are all guys..

2010-01-13T23:43:00.002+08:00

have been working these few days.

so might be blogging very seldom.

anyway, here are some updates.

so firstly, i had a big quarrel with my dad,

dun really know what is going on currently.

but mainly, we had spilt into our own ways.

so can be able to consider that i am a girl, without a father.

now still feeling great now.

still had my BI with me.

just currently had some financal difficulty.

but BI's parents adore me alot.

been treating me like their own daughter.

was really grateful about it.

so was trying to repay them some how.

but couldn't think of any ideas...

now i'm still working in HOME-FIX.

back to square one again.GOSH!~

guess, i couldn't get use to working in F&B line.

now my lifestyle is work and home only.

didn't really bother to go out and had some new fresh air.

was to lazy, thanks to my BI.

for making me such a habit~

HOHO!~

now BI was beside me, making some noise.

he is currently reading what i am posting.

he even said " eh! eh! eh! what habit? "

guess he was just pushing the blame and saying that it was not him making it as my habit.

now this idiot, trying to say i am MAD!~

but he is the one, that is going mad.

he told me he had a good news and bad news.

i told him, i wanted to hear the bad new first.

he said " this saturday, i couldn't be able to accompany you,"

" and the good news is, this saturday i can be able to accopany you."

TOTALLY IS SO DAMN COCK LARHS!~

he den started to laugh like mad?

GOOSH! guess only mad people, will said someone that is not mad, a mad.

i am so freaking going to slap his face now.

if that MMMAAAADDD SCIENTIST wont stop laughing.

first, he told me about ZOMBIE

then TOWER that spread chemical.

after that, Tsunami house protecter.

dunno what his brain thinking.

he said the house is made by Cement and Metal.

DAMN COCK la.

he wanted something that is impossible.

so just currently, treating him like a Small Kid

and entertain him.

NOW... cassandra predicted that Joverst will said i had hurt him.

so now, i got to stop here and entertain my BI.

2009-12-31T21:34:00.003+08:00

hey, guess my blog is dead for a period of time.

anyway, didn't know which idiot had tagged my blog and saied trust me, you forever de.

guess this person had just nothing much to do.

anyway, today had a great time with BI.

and for that ... person who dun even dare to put his/her name.

he/she is just so old dated.

didn't had the eyes to read the date of it.

my problem do not need someone like you too care.

comment about yourself before commenting me.

but anyway, i just dun wanna get my mood spoil by this bitch/bastard.

today went for a job interview and was surprise that they called me in the evening.

to tell me that i was given the post.

OMG!~ but bi was also disappointed too.

as he had not been called.

i am praying hard for him.

anyway, went to tampines to buy a jacket for BI's mother

& also brought BI's school bag and he even brought a bag for me too.

how sweet of him huh?

then we headed to lavender to pass my sister her DVD which i borrowed from her.

after that, we went to CHINATOWN to look for BI's parents.

as i told BI i wanna eat riceball.

so he bring me to his parent work place and eat.

after that, we headed home...

btw yesterday was our 2nd month.

HAPPY 2nd MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!!

2009-12-14T19:05:00.002+08:00

it's been so long since i had blogged.

been playing maple all day long.

things isn't going fine with me.

sometimes i wonder, does relationship really will last as sweet as before?

i dunno. been getting frusrated all day long.

what is the fcuking wrong with me?

i'm afraid. afraid that my feeling will went off.

i dun wan, and i'm trying to control.

but seems like nothing works that will make me cool down.

maybe my true colour had came out, or whatso ever.

i dunno. i need someoe to guild me.

i hate this part right here.

when i can only stand there and do nothing.

it's been a month plus with him,but why do we still keep quarrelling?

i thought we are the most matching ones.

but whythings turns out this way?

i dun wan!

really hope things will be back to normal.

i really envy all my friends that is surrounding me.they had been wit heir loves one like me.

but that wasn't the same.

they had been give in to their loves one, but why i can't?

i'm tired of it, and still i didn't wanna give up.

everything just sucks to the core.

i'm falling down right now.

but nothing is able to mend it.

and so, i'm just going to face every single things that will going to be happening.

2009-11-29T01:58:00.002+08:00

didn't had any time to blog these few days.

was with my BI.

so was quite busy.

anyway, today had helped BI to clean up his room

and also arrange his furniture.

hmms, today wasn't really very happy.

due to PEPPER didn't ate his dinner.

& the feeling was damn heart pain.

but anyway, thanks to BI who had transfer money to PEPPER.

den PEPPER had his dinner.

PEPPER even chatted with BI about many things.

which i wasn't really sure about it.

but hopefully,PEPPER and BI will get along.

so all the video and photo had not uploaded yet.

so got to delay.

so i'm going to stop till here.

as the whole evening of work is making me tired.

2009-11-25T20:23:00.003+08:00

today wasn't a enjoying day with BI.

we quarrel as both of us had our own problem.

mine was about money issue.

was broke for this month starting from today.

as for BI, he might drop dorm.

cause of my fault.

i dunno whether who's fault it was.

but i think it was mine.

but when BI blowed off, his attitude had changed.

he's tone of voice and everything.

yes, he was angry.

but i couldn't get use to it.

he was so sweet and caring all along.

he tolerate whatever attitude i gave.

but today, i dunno what happen.

everything was different.

i felt weird.

BI said he was feeling normal, but i dun.

i almost said break.

because i wanted to see whether he still love me after how he treated me.

i used this break as a test.

but ended up, i failed to hide my emotions.

i cried out so loud. cause it hurts me.

i couldn't forget how he shouted me.

even though, he said he didn't.

but the tone is different from the past on how he treated me.

i was sorry for making so much burden to him.

if i had knew what BI was going through, maybe i wont had acted that way.

but today i had realise alot of things.

that i really can't let him go & it was hard to me to imagine what if he had left me one day.

i really hope that he will understand that when i am in a bad mood.

i needed to cool down.

because i wanted to prevent us from quarrelling.

and i dunno why when i get moody,

i can't voice anything out.

i wanted to speak up, to tell what is wrong with me.

but i couldn't!

i wanted to tell BI all my sorrows.

i wanted to hug him and cry.

but he was angry and i dun have the guts.

i'm helpless at that point of time.

but BI was angry with me.

i wanted to let him go, cause i was a different person when i fall.

BI dun understand it, and he talks in a mean manner.

every single words still flash through my mind.

it really hurts me. every word pierce through my heart.

sometimes i wonder, do i had some illness or what.

i wasn't myself. i wasn't

guess that wasn't me at all...

2009-11-24T17:04:00.003+08:00

GOSH! was having much fun today.

BI and i made video.

was so damn lame can.

and he even dance jumpstyle for me.

dunno why i just find it that,

when he was dancing, i find him look more like a monkey.

as his hands was swinging so madly.

so had written some notes for BI.

& he even brought it back to hostel.

i even made a CHEER UP card for him.

cause he wasn't happy this morning.

as he got to write a statement.

so i hope that little card will cheer him up.

even though, there is no magic or whatsoever.

was just being so lame today.

played with super glue.

i mean not sniffing it.

but putting it on my hand.

BI was giving me disgusted looks.

so it's so totally funny can.

the looks on his face was damn funny.

so took another video of BI banging real walls.

he was shouting pain.

was laughing like mad,

video will be put up soon.

2009-11-23T17:00:00.002+08:00

haven been blogging these two days.

was busy with BI.

as saturday, his homeleave was at 5pm.

so we got to rush to BUGIS to collect our couple tee.

then when we headed home, it's already 8plus.

sunday, we went to the AFA event

and i had saw alot of people cosplaying.

was so damn nice can.

their costume and everything.

GOSH! i wanna be like them too.

and guess what, i was only wearing gothic clothes.

& there is this lady wanted to take photo with me.

was so damn no link can.

but was having alot of fun.

so this week BI is coming out on thursday i guess.

damn happy for him.

hope time will past faster man.

so today had meet BI outside his hostel again.

then after school, we went home and slacked.

and you know what?

today BI was acting so stupid.

i asked him to bang the wall in the train

and he really did it.

it was really a hard one.

had video it up.

so will be posting it up, i guess

hmms, had taken photo on saturday and sunday.

but did not had the chance to post it up.

so will be up by this week.

btw our first month anniversary is coming.

did a little token for him.

he said it was nice.

even my naughty student said it was nice to.

gosh! BI even keep it so carefully.

sweet of him huh?

BI i miss you so much.

2009-11-20T16:55:00.002+08:00

finally back home.

was wasting my time playing facebook resturant city.

GOSH! so lame can

anyway, was hoping BI to had some surprise for me.

like homeleave today?

but ended up, it still remain the same.

so was waited for BI outside his school.

thought 9am he will be out for break.

but in the end, the school changed to 10am.

had waited for so long.

so waited for him to get dismiss from school.

& we headed to his house as he was dismiss at 12.30pm.

lucky he had sign out at 2.10pm

so had an hour plus to slack when we reached his place.

so watched some stupid show.

so on our way, we took some photos.

but i couldn't be able to upload it now.

as my computer had been reformat.

& my software data is at BI's house.

so had to wait for tomorrow to upload it.

shag!

today might be a busy day.

had to go BI house to fetch his mother to his hostel family day.

and i will be acting as his coursin.

GOSH MAN! i dunno what to say.

but worst is, i am broke.

and my ez-link had run out of money.

HOW?! i couldn't take from my dad either.

borrow from mum?

i can't. she will start her complain.

stressful man-,-

what to do? can anyone help me?!?!?!

2009-11-19T16:53:00.002+08:00

today was so tired man.

had been carrying my clothes all the way to BI hostel.

but ended up took a stop to his hostel and waited for him

hmms, so went to his house and left the things there.

BI had passed me his phone

so as to let him listen to his songs during his family day.

so waited for him as usual.

took some photos when i'm bored.

and even played lame games from my phone

GOSH!

& guess what?

it started to rain so heavily.

and BI school shoe got wet.

you know why?

cause his shoe had a hole on the bottom of the shoe.

so the water went in.

cute right? that shoe been passed down by angus(daddy)

& i dun understand if BI is used with wearing shoes with hole or what.

he simply kept wearing shoes that had holes.

because his shoe was wet after school.

we went to his house again.

to slack awhile while he changed his shoe to another pair.

which also had a BIG HOLE on the tip of his toe.

he said that water would not went in.

but when we reached his hostel outside.

he told me his socks was wet.

i was laughing like mad when he told me that his shoe was a crocodile

begining, he told his friend it's stingray.

now he had changed shoe, he told me it was crocodile

GOSH! nothing much to say about him.

super creative imagination.

hmms, i guess his homeleave shoe what kind of animal will it be

as he's shoe had a big hole too.

at the side of it's shoe.

guess BI was so pathetic to buy a new shoe.

but no worries. his dad had given him money.

but he spend it on eating.

he was eating SOOOO MUCHHH!

been having a bad mood today.

was so tired too.

people had been so irritating to ask me to introduce girls to them.

but HELLO! do i look like one match-maker AUNTY?!?!

i had said many times.

i dun have any GIRLS to introduce.

you wan, ahgua can a not?

i'm trying to be nice to everyone.

but please know your limit.

dun fcuking pester me just because you had some relationship with me.

you all dun treat me like one, so what for i had to do something you wanted me to help?

i'm not that stupid.

if you had the attraction, find it yourself.

dun claim yourself as handsome when you can't even find a girl to talk with.

BI, help me man!

i'm so fcuking hot right now.

been trying to control my temper.

GOSH! i've been having a heartache when you left.

and now, frustration started to occur to me.

i really hope you will be there to help me get ride of my frustration.

you always makes me laugh or smile when i get angry.

and now you wasn't with me.

btw i'm sorry for lying to you.

you asked me to take the umbrella.

instead i told you on my way home had shelter.

but the fact is, it dun.

i got wet but it's alright.

i just dun wan you to get sick, do i get myself clear.

another one week and you will have trail homeleave.

congratulation! and you wont have to make me wait for you.

to come out from school, to come out for homeleave and everything.

i can't wait for that day.

today it's really a good news to me.

just hope time will past faster right now.

BI, i miss you so much although it is less than 24hours.

maybe i'm just so totally crazy over you.

i will miss you too BI.

i really will.

if that it is possible, hopefully we can be able to work together.

awaiting for tomorrow to get to see you again.

although, i always walk there to look for you.

but i felt a satisfaction after that.

cause you are my determination for everything.

but hey, although you might get jealous easily sometimes

but you promised to trust me.

so you had to ok?

cause baby only had you and i will never betray you.

you are so cute, how will i be possible to let others had you?

obviously, i will save it for myself right?

BI, i really need your help now.

i'm going to burst out my temper anytime!

2009-11-18T16:19:00.003+08:00

i'm back from fetching BI back to hostel.

today time as been pasting so fast.

was almost late today.

but manage to see BI waiting for me.

anyway, today had quarrel with him.

because i thought he was showing me attitude.

GOSH! i dunno what is wrong.

he had been a very patient boyfriend.

even though, i was making a big fuss of it.

he had been tolerating.

thanks BI.

so after that, we are fine again.

hmms, so today he went home for awhile.

and i had apologise for what had happen before that.

glad that he had forgiven me.

so just read BI today's post.

LOLS! i'm really glad he is happy for what i had done.

BI, i dun care how tolerating it is to come early in the morning everyday.

as long as you are happy, that is my reward from you.

though i might show attitude at times.

but please forgive me.

it will always be my anger that makes word so nasty.

it's alright that you can't be accompanying me this friday.

but hopefully, you can be able to get a long homeleave.

maybe monday or tuesday?

GOSH! i started to miss you so much man-,-

just behaviour yourself and i will be satisfy.

i dun wan anything to happen to you.

you get what i mean?

i love you, & i'm not going to leave you.

every possible time to be with you, i will be there.

I PROMISE!

2009-11-17T16:49:00.003+08:00

today was suppose to go for interview at orchard

but in the end, i didn't turn up.

cause everyone has been talking me that chanel wont hired me.

so was so turn off by their words and also can't stand to see BI one day.

so ended went to look for BI.

was hugging him so much.

as if we had not been meeting for months.

GOSH! i swear i wont leave him if i got a choice.

didn't expect it will be so tongku man.

so anyway, didn't do much

suppose i wasn't allow to drink cold drink.

but BI forgotten about it.

hence, i requested for bubble tea.

& in the end, i had a stomach cramp.

GOSH! almost can't bear it.

but BI was there to comfort me

LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

he even changed his CHILDISH blogskin to a better one.

miss him so badly right now man.

today, i started to realise how much i had relay on him.

even though, i might be boring to wait for him outside his school.

but i will always look forward for the few minutes of looking at him.

and within this few minutes,

he will always cheer me up and bring me laughter.

that is what, i was looking forward.

to pinch and bite him.

GOSH! i super love him alright?

hopefully, he will get early discharge.

it's so painful without him.

2009-11-16T16:32:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry for showing my temper today.

wasn't really meant to throw my tantrum on you.

guess something wasn't right today.

friends been telling me all sort of thing.

and yes, i was affected.

i'm afraid that we wont be like how we are now in future.

i'm afraid that i can't be hugging you in future.

& also i'm afraid that you wasn't there to comfort me when i feel scared.

the things that i've told you wasn't scaring you.

just that i'm afraid that it would happen.

i'm trying to distract those words from my mind.

but i can't. I'M SORRY!

maybe i'm just thinking too much.

BI, i love you so so much.

but still i'm afraid.

to get hurt again.

the feeling is been killing me every single time.

& i can't stand it.

this time round, i'm afraid too.

i can't imagine if one day i had to let you go.

i really can't afford to lose you.

maybe this is the time for me to scan through my brain

to think of how to not get disturb by words.

i really look forward for us to me together as long as we are.

hopefully, i wont get affected.

BI, i will be waiting for you to come out.

rest assume that i wont flirt around although i was pulling your leg saying that i will.

just wanna see your face.

so BI, do have trust in me.

i loved you so much.

how on earth would i bear to leave you?

as long as you dun leave me.

i will be so happy already.

2009-11-14T23:28:00.013+08:00

14 NOVEMBER 2009: BI and daddy fetch me from work!!!

this post will be updating on 13 & 14 november issue.

yesterday was not be able to post as today has to work.

so slept early yesterday night.

14 NOVEMBER 2009

went work today. was so super shag man.

had to work with the new store manager.

was super damn boring.

anyway, a few customer had praised me for my service.

was very happ about that.

but unfortunately, there is this STUPID customer.

who thought that i followed her around the store.
which i didn't!

had ask me to stop following her.

was so super hot.

& yet she got the cheek to come back to the store and buy thing.

WHAT THE FCUK!!

really feel like slapping her face at that point of time.

was super turn off by her.
so wait for BI and daddy to come.

yet they was late for 25 mins!

and i had done extra time for the store.

but it's alright.

cause today i had inform the manager that i wanted to resign within this month.

so guess that will be fine.

so fter BI and daddy came,

we went to cold storage and BI brought hotdog and potato for dinner.

then we headed to clementi kopitiam and had daddy's lunch.

while i buy kangkong for $5 and took it away.

after daddy had his meal, we headed to causeway point

as daddy wanted to buy ear stud.

so we accompany him as it was his request.

shopping awhile, we headed home.

and BI cooked maggie mee with those hotdogs and potato.

we ate our dinner while watching ASTRO BOY!

the latest movie.

so now, BI was scanning through his baby photo

and claim that he is cute man-,-

OMG!!! i can't stand him

and i'm so freakking tired now.

so after complete this post, will be sleeping already.

YAWN!!!

so this were the picture that i've took today!

angus daddy cassandra joverst BI

13 NOVEMBER 2009: SHOPPING!

BI came out from school at 12.30pm.

we headed to woodland checkpoint and had a look.

and he brought each of us a ring.

which was made of rubber-,-

but no worries soon it will be metal.

he promised.

so we went there to buy cigarette

which BI promise to try the new cigarette

MARLBORO ICEBLAST

it was like shit man.

didn't really had an different at all.

GOSH! the mint tasted like medical oil

and it didn't last ver long.

but was fun to play the ball in the filter.

so we was suppose to meet daddy.

but ended up was raining.

had extended the meeting time later and later.

daddy got frustrated and didn't wait for us

and he left to bugis with his two friends and sister.

so when around 4pm we leave his house and went to bugis.

we went to buy couple tee that i had promse my friend the previous weekend.

so brought it and headed to find my sister.

as i had promised her.

so was talking to her for a moment.

then we head to shop around.

when it was time, we left plaza singapura.

BI even brought crab for me to eat man.

was so freakking happy.

THANKS BI! LOVE YOU...

so after eating i went to sleep.

PHOTOS...

CASSANDRA's

JOVERST's

COPYCAT & COPYDOG

although, our nickname for each other are childish.

but you will never expect how much alike we are.

the things that we like and the personality we had.

we are WEIRD!@#$%^&*

that is the fact, but this is what make us so UNIQUE.

wasn't afraid to feel embrass.

as long as there are accompany for eaach other.

i love him that is the truth.

no matter how long we will be,

i will never know. so does he

but everyday, we had been expecting different laughter.

to laugh about and to cheer one another up.

the droplets of tear came from one another,

will each pierce through our heart.

that makes it so painful.

it wasn't how much we sarcifice for one another.
but the bonding that we had created till this amount of extend.

even though, how much people words tried to disturb me.

i will always choose to hold onto this little hope

as this is the only thing i'm concentrating about.

was trying my best not to show him any attitude.

not because i'm afraid we will quarrel.

but afraid he will leave me.

neither of my attitude did really shown out.

but my sensative characteristic had been show.

i dunno what is going on with me.

but was trying my best to control my negative point.

no matter how hard a relationship could be.

it will always depend on the willingness to speak it out.

talking truthfully with each other.

and not afraid to get into any conflicts.

so this is what i've learn form JOVERST LEE GIM SIANG!

2009-11-09T19:23:00.004+08:00

today ALASKAN called me in the morning.

talking all the cock and bulls as we haven been updating each other for a period of time.

so went to fetch BI from hostel as usual.

and send him to school.

waited for him to be dismiss.

i was so broke today man.

been trying to save money but couldn't

so had been planning our outing.

anyway, you know what?

BI drawn me chip and dale free handed.

awww... how sweet huh?

he even drawn it alike man.

i love it so much lorhs.

so as normal, was tensing BI that i wont fetch him.

and he seems so sad.

so i asked BI what style he want me to wear.

as usual, he said cute immediately.

so been cracking my brain and think about it.

till i reached home and take all my clothes out to try it out.

finally, i found a pair that will lead to this theme BI had wanted.

it was a sort of long sleeveless shirt, and a shorts with a star jacket

plus my black shoes.

my hair will be tied side up and i will be wearing blak nerd glasses.

think that should be ok huh?

hopefully, wont fail to attempt my japanese style.

GOSH! i can't wait for tomorrow when i'm going shopping with BI.

planned to go home straight after his school.

then let him change into outing clothes

and head to bugis to buy couple tee.

then will be going plaza singapura to find my sister, josephine.

after that, our last stop will be woodland check point.

hopefully, will be having enough time.

if not, i gonna be so shag.

cause saturday will be working and i got to see the fcuk up new manager!

i'm just wondering if the time will past fast that day.

hopefully, angus will be following us tomorrow.

2009-11-09T19:23:00.003+08:00

yesterday was too tired to blog.

so didn't update.

hais. today wasn't a very nice day.

early in the morning send BI to school as usual.

den waited for him until his 9am break.

been reading books.

after that about afternoon, yixin came and look for me.

ask me for cigarette while we talked.

and i realised that what BI said is different.

in common sense, normally people will believe outsider what.

so i decided to ask BI.

and the answer wasn't very convincing.

i thought i could as him without feeling any pain.

but i was wrong.

when i asked him and his answer was a dunno.

i fall at that moment.

started to cry alot.

really dunno what is those crying for.

then BI seems quite frustrated.

but he kept saying sorry.

suppose his study camp ended at 1.30pm but instead he came out at 1pm.

we talked for a period of time

and i admitted that i cried.

seems like he dun really know what to do when comes to me crying huh?

i couldn't laugh when he makes funny jokes

but slowly i could.

i even bite him and he was shouting out loud man.

so anyway, today some sort of had a quarrel with BI.

but after while, everything went back to normal.

guess i didn't bear to get angry with him.

and when i told him i went to toilet,

he thought i had took a bus home.

GOSH! i really nothing to say man.

almost laughed.

2009-11-09T19:23:00.002+08:00

LOLS! back to blogging again.

this morning as usual had send BI to school.

and wait for him to get dismiss.

he was kinda angry when he got dismiss

as a teacher of his school scolded him.

and he was started to like machine gun,

keep making alot of noise.

so when he cooled down,

we went to his school coffee shop to buy a pack of rice and share it.

due to us without any money.

we were two super damn pathetic people.

BI even went to do some business.

by sing a song for $1

it's like so unbelieveable can

his singing wasn't that nice at all.

plus nobody understand his english man-,-

so after that, we went back to his hostel.

as his level OM signed his book at 2.10pm dismiss.

so when we are on the way,

this guy who i dunno who is this.

been sleeping in the mrt.

his mouth as so super big can.

then BI and i was teasing him among ourselves

when we saw his guy was just like a dancing snake.

as his head keep moving up and down.

until it land on one of a middle age guy

and the middle age guy even say" win already lo"

as the sleeping guy did not wake up

BI and i was just laughing like mad.

so after the middle age man left.

the left side sat a girl.

who seems younger than BI and i.

she was like so afraid that the guy will fall on her.

but ended up, it didn't and was falling on another side of the seat when it was empty.

and he hited himself against the pole.

at the moment, BI and i was laughing till we got to cover ourselves with something.

so when it was at bukit batok.

this particular guy woke up

and was look at which stop he is.

he even step one he didn't slept overstop.

and got up to wait for the last station to alight.

but when everyone got up, he when to sit back again.

GOSH! i dun even know what to say.

and i could judge him as a nerd boy.

as his spec had broken on one side.

i really can't believe it man-,-

so today was a very funny day,despite all the waiting.

and i even took a photo of the man sleeping.

but didn't got to upload

as mu uncles had just changed a new PC.

the past data of mine are all gone.

so after sending BI back to hostel,

i took a bus home

and immediately fall asleep.

when i woke up, my company send me a msg that i dun need to come to work tomorrow.

it's so super ridiculous of the working hours can.

SHIT man! but nevermind.

guess tomorrow BI will got another surprise again.

and OH, BTW. i made BI something yesterday.

i gave it to him today morning.

hopefully, he will like it.

tomorrow will have to do morning exercise.

to walk to BI hostel outside.

dun really got the money to take a cab anymore

2009-11-08T12:08:00.002+08:00

i'm back again.

today it's a miracle..

BI and i manage to sleep until 9plus

as normally, we will wake up even though the sun haven come out.

two mad DOGS!

so later will be meeting my daddy for lunch.

LOLS! so guess what? we are still at home.

haven get ready yet.

GOSH! i love my nails even more lorhs.

look super stylo.

haha! will think about any new pattern by next week.

den will post it on blog.

so guess got to get prepare already.

will be posting again tonight.

2009-11-08T01:06:00.006+08:00

Today went to BUGIS with BI, DADDY and idiot.

as it was idiot's birthday

felt so guilty when i had to let him wait for me for hours.

so went for shopping and i was attracted by one of the clothes.

but unfortunately, it cost about $80 plus.

so decided to buy it maybe next week.

brought many things, i spend over $50 plus

dun understand why.

didn't really had the chance to take any photo with idiot.

so after that, we went to plaza singapura to look for my sister.

as i had owe her a birthday card.

seperated with idiot as he needs to go for his birthday party.

and guess what? i decided to cut my hair.

and it was my newest looks.

BI said it's cute anyway.

hopefully my fringe wont grow that fast.

went to chapter 2 and cut it.

cost me $28, but it's worth it.

after that, we went straight back home as BI eyes was in pain.

on our way home, we even brought sushi and many more.

ws eating like crazy can.

slacked awhile and BI helped me to change my blogskin.

so sweet of him huh?

and today there is a BIG BIG JOKE!

BI, wore my mango spag and a shorts that i brought today.

i was lauging like mad can.

he super look like a CHAO AH GUA.

but didn't manage to upload the photo, cause there is some problem.

maybe that is fated.

AND I EVEN PRANK ANGUS!

BY ASKING BI TO LIE TO HIM THAT HE WAS WITH ANOTHER GIRL.

GOSH! THIS CAN SHOW HOW MY DAD LOVE ME.

so now BI was fast asleep, as he was so tired

he manage to do up my blogskin before sleeping.

so nice of him.

and i'm so freaking tired too.

will let the photo do the job..

MY SPEECH TO THEM!!

ANGUS TEO!

daddy, so long didn't meet you already.

miss you so much man.

hmms, although this photo you dun look nice.

but you will always be, my daddy.

it's been two years and yet we still contact each other.

when you went into hostel, i also went in too.

such a coincidence huh?

so anyway, i hope you will find a nice and faitful girlfriend n future.

so as to mend the pain in your heart.

though, you dun said it.

but we all know that you are hurt.

so must stay strong and forgive and forget.

lastly, i love you and will always be there for you.

JOVERST!!

BI, thanks for doing this blogskin for me.

even though, how tired you are, you still manage to complete it.

and you promise to wait for me to complete blogging before sleeping.

but ended up, you fall asleep.

but it's alright. i know you are tired.

so it's ok. anw, i will always be yours.

will be awaiting for you to come out next week.

then we will shop till havoc.

better be good inside ok.

faster trail hor. i will be waiting

LASTLY, WISH US ALL THE BEST FOR THE FUTURE.

I WILL BE HOPING TO BE WITH YOU AS LONG AS WE COULD.

2009-11-07T09:59:00.002+08:00

back to blogging again.

currently at BI house.

he went to buy our breakfast while i stayed at home.

will be going over to bugis later on.

to shop for BI's GOTHIC clothes.

PEPPER, even gave me $100 for my shopping.

nice huh?

anyway, yesterday wasted my day at BI house.

early in the morning jiu went over there to wait for him.

send him to school

and waited outside till his school dismiss.

after tha, send him back to hostel and went back home.

to pack my things as planned to stay at his house yesterday night.

so took a short nap

and immediately get prepared.

went there but had already saw BI at the bus stop waiting for me.

and he didn't even give me a call.

so went to yewtee and pass something.

then we went to woodland de pasamalam.

brought some snacks home

and watched ghost movie.

and today is my idiot's birthday.

HAPP 15th BIRTHDAY!!!

2009-11-05T16:09:00.002+08:00

LOLS. early in the morning woke up and get ready to BI hostel

wasn't been sleeping well yesterday night.

guess been sleeping too much huh?

got a off yesterday as i had a sudden fever.

so got up at 3.30am and leave my house at 4.30am.

almost got lost half way.

but manage to find my way there.

anyway, reached there at 5.10am.

was so super early lorhs.

as Bi suppose to come out at 6am.

think i'm mad man.

so talked to ALASKAN in between while waiting for Bi to come out.

when i saw him, i shouted at his name.

but he didn't answer.

so called his english name and he was shock to see me.

OH! can't forget his cute face when he was shock.

so i accompany him to his school

and slacked at his school void deck.

waited for him to dismiss after school.

so in between i was doing my friends birthday card.

owe 3 of them. but manage to complete only one and a half.

saw my naughty student and talked to her for awhile.

after that, i send Bi back to hostel

and guess what? in between...

we was talking about jesus.

dunno where this topic come from.

today realised how much Bi hated this religion.

LOLS. he even said lucky i wasn't a christian.

haha. cute larhs him.

so before he went in, i promised to come tomorrow.

and even tease him by saying i will give him a surprise tomorrow.

by not coming to fetch him.

& he even give me a pathetic face larhs.

sometimes, really feel like disturbing him can.

and we was also talking how unexpected we had been together.

was even talking about our past issue.

was so fun today.

though, he was mostly in school and i was outside.

waiting for him.

but still it worth it, as at some point of time.

he even sneak out to look for me.

GOSH! how sweet can he be?

LOLS! was so freaking tired now.

but couldn't be able to sleep as i am downloading Bi favourite song.

so as to let him listen when he is on the way to school.

LOLS. but seems like the downloading was so super slow larhs.

i can even fall asleep.

ok now. had to search for Bi favourite songS.

and install it in my ipod.

2009-11-04T16:35:00.002+08:00

came back from work le.

been very frustrated with today's customer.

got looked down by them just because i wore a trainee name tag

shit man!

started to show attitude to customers.

not only the customers make me turn off

and also the stupid promoter.

been making so many noise just because he can't sold a single thing

that wasn't a big deal what.

so what for he been nagging about.

hated the customers and hated my colleugue.

changed new manager yet been having the stress.

dunno why, even though i haven seen him yet

i dunno about it man.

anyway, talked to BI about the frustrated thing and guess what,

he is so super cute larhs.

talked to me until the phone hung up.

lols. i almost laugh my lungs out.

OH MY GOSH!

left one more day to go.

and bi will be out from hostel.

i miss him so much can.

today he even send me a very long msg can.

dunno why i keep laughing.

maybe cause of his broken english huh?

2009-11-03T20:32:00.002+08:00

just came back home.

was not feeling very well this morning.

so took a half day off.

thought of seeing a doctor.

but ended up, when to look for BI.

dunno what on earth am i thinking.

maybe i did took the off for him ba.

as i was actually, planned to meet him at sengkang after my work.

so anyway, met him outside his school the opposite block

brought my food as i haven had my meal.

wented to his house to slack awhile as he wanted to see what did i wrote on his facebook wall paper.

slacked about 3 plus, we took a bus to sengkang.

as he need to go for a program.

so accompany him through out the program.

GUESS WHAT? the stupid program is just slacking there can?

so after that, i followed him backed to hostel.

hais. the pain is always killing me when i had to see BI go back hostel.

imagine looking at your loves one's backview slowly apart from you.

sometime, it really makes my heart ache.

i dunno why this pain occur to me several times whenever i bring him back to hostel.

actually, sometimes i'm afraid that he will be like richard.

playing around with my feelings when he's out.

but after all, i had to give it a try.

just because richard played me out, does not mean he will.

so i was just hoping for the best

in between this short period of time, i did had some strong feeling for him.

but i wonder, should i really put this relationship seriusly this time round AGAIN?

afraid of many things.

many times the pain is always coming towards me.

got played out so many times.

really feel like giving up.

but this time round, i still choose to give it a try.

i hope i wont let it go anymore.

maybe i might be controlling next time that he can't tolerate

but i just really wants him to be mine and only mine.

whether his sweet talks is true or not,

i dunno. but all i need now is truthfulness.

in future, he got someone better.

i will always give him my blessing even though how hurtting it is.

i will fall and i really will.

but what matter the most is making him happy.

this relationship might just be a puppy love

like what my friends say.

but please prove them wrong.

for i really hope i wasn't.

BI said that he loves me and i really hope he did.

i'm looking for a long relationship

& not a temporary one.

as it's time for me to get serious this time round.

i dun wanna think about the future, as it will only makes me disappointed.

so whatever it's coming towards me,

i will face it and let it go with a smile.

& lastly, i loves and misses my BI

2009-11-02T09:44:00.004+08:00

CASSANDRA STRONGLY ANNOUNCE THAT SHE's A GOTHIC AGAIN!!

will be turning into a monster soon. thanks to my new currently boyfriend

who is a GOTHIC and also a COSPLAY PLAYER.

he's madness really can make me go CRAZZZYYY sometime.

but after all, he's CUTE in this action.

& guess what? we even created ourselves NAMES.

PRESENTING TO YOU...

COPYDOG COPYCAT

the reason why we are called COPYDOG AND CAT is that we had the same thinkings

& loves the same things.

couldn't really find someone like this. HARDLY MAN-,-

so hopefully, we will get the blessings from our friends.

should be a GOTHIC very soon.

GUESS YOU HAD CURRENTLY SEEING A GAY WITH ME??

LOLS! i dun really understand why he loves to ACT CUTE SO MUCCCHHHH...

can't really help it.

he's too talented to act as one CHAO AH GUA alright?

hmms, can't really understand why he likes to do this.

maybe he's just born to be one.

what people hated to do, he loves to do.

& this might be the reason why i chosen him as my boyfriend?

unique? & weirdddd? OHHHH! he's so a WEIRDOO!!

GOSH! think i'm mad with him.

GGGOOOTTTHHHIIICCC??

how on earth will i think about going back to this style man.

thanks to him. i'm still back to square shape AGAIN. GOTHIC

so anyway, today early in the morning 5am.

woke up and prepared myself.

took a cab down to his hostel outside to wait for him

so as to fetch him to school.

although, it's SO SUPER EARLY.

but still, everything is worth it.

brought his jacket along.

as he will be cold early in the morning.

but seems like alot of people been telling me that i will forget my friends when i had him.

BUT... hey guys.

dun you all know my character?

boyfriend will never be my first priority.

just that weekends i got to spend more time with him.

cause after all, weekdays he wasn't there for me.

if even weekends i dun spend my time with him.

den what is the use of starting a relationship?

when there is only a status there?

& status is nothing but meaningless.

i promise i will still spend time with you guys.

but it's the matter of time right now.

his school started at 8am, so we reached early and slacked at his school opposite void deck

guess my face without make up really like one shit huh?

but it's alright. cause he is also without his WIG!!

ahyo! short hair but still can't face the fact.

in fact, he brought a wig and cover it.

totally can make me laugh my lungs out.

been tempting him right now.

seems like he's so desperate to look at my blog.

but sad case, he's in school. LALALALASSS

SHIT-TED! attempt temptation FAILED!

GOSH! not fun at all. so not going to play with him.

IDIOT COPYCAT OF MINE.

& the most retard thing that he do is that, he FAILED his exam.

REASON: he dun wanna stay in hostel during school holiday.

SHIT-TED GUY HUH?

anyway, this is how retard he is.

COPYCAT; gim siang

BI, you this mad guy. although, i dun really understand what you are messaging me right now.

maybe some alien language of yours.

that mostly, i dun really know what you are speaking.

but it's ok. as long as you are one normal human.

although, you had some weird and funny thinking like no one else

but this is what makes me like you the most.

keep it in mind, that i'm so not going to let you feed me to 300pounds and break the record

cause i will choose to die.

like how you can't face the fact that you had a short hair

like one kuku nerd boy boy

so you want me to die or you want me to live?

it's so hard for me to slim down and now you wanna waste my effort?

no way... anyway, this saturday going to bugis with you.

but hopefully, nothing will happen to you.

so i will call my dog gang to pray for you.

lastly, i'm proud to have you right now.

LOVES & MISSES

& never will i forget my retarded enermy.

PEISHAN

2009-10-31T19:57:00.002+08:00

back to blogging again

yesterday night quarrel with PEPPER.

it was really a BIG one

ended up, sleeping at my friend place.

PATHETIC FREAK HUH?

no choice. i just dun feel like facing PEPPER.

he's just so freaking spoil mood can.

actually, it's still hurt to see him in this manner.

but it's my attitude.

i'm sorry for making you so disappointed.

& it's really my fault for talkng to you in this manner.

but please, think about me can't you?

why do you have to always because of money issue quarrelling with me?

isn't it unfair?

i tried to control my money problem.

i really did, but just can't you see it?

you said i was troublesome.

but do you actually think of my feelings?

if you wasn't that demanding and that attitude problem.

maybe we wont be in this manner.

do you know how proud i was to had you as my father?

i even told my friends how wonderful you are.

& they even envy me for having such a relaxing father.

but think... i had my sense of responsible.

i know how much suffer you had been through.

the pain is always killing me.

do you know that? seems that you dun.

we always had conflicts. WHY?

not because we are not mend to be

but beacuse we always think for ourselves.

that's our problem

i tried to make you understand me.

by telling you all the sorows and happiness that i've been through.

but do you know that?

you said you wanted to protect me.

seems that nothing was shown but LOVE.

you always asked me to be what you wanted.

i've tried and i really did.

but every little mistake i've done will always make you pull my performance down.

DAD, everyone will makes mistake and you knew it.

like the mistake of you being with MUMMY at the beginning.

you regretted it for your action.

& i did too regretted my action.

so why not you just open a big heart and accept for what i am.

cause after all, i'm your daughter.

2009-10-30T21:30:00.002+08:00

LOLS! now at friend house.

hmms, today is quite a boring day

went to orchard with him

den he buy 2 nonsense things.

ONE GEEK spec and ONE cancer hat.

it's like so no logic larhs.

LOLS. but the most idiot thing is that he wanted to go home after that

FCUK RIGHT!!!???

so going to ask my dog gang lorhs.

to bite his cock man.

halfway wanna go home.

ALASKAN!!! got people bully me.

GOGOGOOOO

LOLS. sound so stupid right?

even my siaobaobao also ask me to stop my DOG TOPIC.

but i think is so cute can.

ESPECIALLY, DOUGIE!!

my favourite dog and also the HUMJI kind.

but still he's super cute.

so guess what?

today i watched JENNIFER's BODY.

JEALOUS RIGHT?

not even need to pay a single cent

cause i watched on the internet.

YEAHHH!!!

quite lame lorhs.

now the BULLY asked me for money.

SUPER BASTARD hor...

ALASKAN!!! GOGOGO

help me larhs.

but nevermind, today i did whack him

guess he going to turn into a retard!!!

WAAAA!!! i'm just so a superwoman.

ya larhs. he is just so buay song now.

LOLS!!! nevermind.

2009-10-29T18:31:00.004+08:00

today was my off day siol.

but went to my work place and help out.

was slacking all the way till 5plus then i leave my house.

went home straight and on atarted blogging.

i really started to realise free girl super boring can.

OMG! missed gracehaven so much.

anyway, i wonder what should i talk to?

maybe about love? hahas

many people always say, I LOVE YOU!

but actually, what does it really mean?

does it means that having some special feeling on someone and that is call loving him?

i dun think so.

to me, loving someone is not oly having that special feeling.

but also have to share what they actually feel.

love is in our hand. we had the choice whether or not to further this relationship.

but everything had what it takes.

the CONSEQUENCES...

the pain and the tears.

beginning a relationship is always sweet.

but after that, it will never be lorhs.

it's always like this.

so maybe i will be making a big change.

because i can't take this challenge anymore.

maybe being single is still the best.

just hopefully, my friend will learn how to think more.

anyway, talking to ALASKAN!

his sending the dog home right now.

and guess what?

his been suffering the whole day.

cause got this dog name CHEDDAR

he love to fartt so much.

and i was one of the victim too.

SUPER DUPER SMELLY CAN!

worst then HUMAN's fart lorhs.

totally is PATHETIC.

find one day, i'm so going accummulate his fartt.

& let those bastards who tried to fool around with me to smell it.

first tester, MY OUTLET OUTSIDE PROMOTER!

and guess i wont have to trouble and call my dog gang come.

so i'm so going to let this promoter to smell it.

i will get permission from my boss, ALASKAN

to get this CHEDDAR's fartt.

& definately he will agree

and i will start to feed this CHEDDAR will ONIONS

so as to complete my plan.

wish me good luck alright?

and here's a good news.

MY ASSHOLE HAD RECOVER!

2009-10-28T17:59:00.003+08:00

just came home today.

knocked off from work at 3plus 4

& guess what?!

today my outlet outside the PROMOTER SUPER YAYA can

buay tahan siol.

you know what he YAYA about?

his bloody phone. dunno what is so big fcuk off it lorhs.

maybe he just brought it or something.

BASTARD sia. so what if my phone had lesser songs than yours?

even though his memory card big so what?

walau eh, 8GB de so BIG, your phone also will lag lorhs.

wa, i tell you. he SUPER DUPER FCUK UP MAN-,-

he really talks like a retard and looks like a retard too.

dun understand why HIS COMPANY wanna hired him!!

i'm so super angry larhs.

i tell you, if he ever going to speak in this manner to me.

i'm so going to diao zhui

& guess who i'm going to call?

MY DOG GANG!!!

and the head is ALASKAN! the BIG doggie.

& i'm so going to ask PEPPER to join in.

then together, we combo and hum his stupid backside!

make his asshole pain until cannot shit!

ARGGGHHHH!!!!

ok fine. i admitted that i also had a ASSHOLE PAIN problem.

guess it's too heaty these few days.

yesterday shit-ed and start to pain like hell till today.

i wonder.... when will my asshole will be fine

i'm hoping to be alright soon.

den i will gain more energy to HUM his backside lorhs.

see who more YAYA larhs.

EH, my tao eh ALASKAN bigger size than you so many times can.

& he still have many of his DOGGIE FRIENDS.

got REX, MAX , BENJI, BENSON and many more lorhs.

i see you sure hum until hide in the toilet bowl and eat MY SHIT!

OH GOSH! hated this PROMOTER SOOOO much

& my ASSHOLE is SOOO PAIN!

anyone can cure my ASSHOLE?!

it's SWOLLEN!!!

2009-10-26T17:55:00.003+08:00

has been staying at home all day long.

never been stepped out of the house once.

anyway, had cut ties with rachel.

things had always been changing long ago.

i remained silent for a period of time and now, i had it.

if she thinks that i'm really immature

den let it be. i had my way of doing things

so if we can't agree it. den let go and move our own way

2009-10-23T18:15:00.005+08:00

SPECIAL REQUEST FROM ALASKAN:

to put those doggies photo that i've taken

THIS IS DOUGIE!

description: a humji dog. will shiver all the way to school

the owner is a chao ahgua that i've mention before

THIS IS PEPPER!

description: like to act one yaya in front of dogs. keep on barking SUPER NOISY!

but one way to stop him, HUM HIS BACKSIDE

the white dog is PRINCE

PEPPER's family member

description: cannot tahan PEPPER and his in charge of HUMMING PEPPER's BACKSIDE

but when PRINCE make noise, ALASKAN will HUM HIS BACKSIDE.

& guess what? they form a TUTU-TRAIN!

and PRINCE love it alot. WOW!!!

the BLACK AND BROWNISH DOG IS kuro(black), SHADOW(brownish)

description: KURO love to HUM SHADOW! & they always create live show. LOLS!

THIS IS COOKIE!

description: SUPER CUTE! quiet and flury. but he had a eyes problem.

& he needs to go YUN NAN HAIR CENTRE! 62226661

LAST BUT NOT LEAST THAT I DIDN'T TOOK THIS DOG PHOTO...

ROMEO!!!

description: look like a MAD SCIENTIST

like to act fierce alot but yet couldn't make it.

step one YAYA only sio!

cause his teeth can break easily.

ROMEO can scared me and ALASKAN

but ended up, get scolded by ALASKAN.

& ji tao whole body shivering.

so this teaches that dogs that are small cannot act fierce

SO ROMEO, NEXT TIME BE A GOOD BOY!

so i'm going to stop here.

ALASKAN, YOUR REQUEST IS MADE

some days i'm going to follow you to fetch these dogs again

BUT IF MONKEY OR MOPY COME, COUNT ME OUT!!!

i dun wanna get RAPE by them again.

playful yet scary...

MONKEY is a horny dog and MOPY is a IDIOT DOG! keep raping me non-stop.

HATED THESE TWO DOGS ALOT!

2009-10-21T13:53:00.002+08:00

hais. so bored and my dvd spoil.

what the hell-,-

can't be able to watch the whole story.

heart pain lerhs.

being sleeping for the whole morning siol

unbelieveable!o.o

was woke up by ALASKAN thrice.

ever two hours he will wake me up-,-

den i pei him talk like as if i taking drugs lorhs.

buay tahan. keep wake up and fall asleep back again.

really dunno what is wrong with my brain can

being moving very slow..

like pig sia. or maybe worst. a bird brain?

hmms, really getting lazier and lazier.

could even slack at home the whole day.

anyway, had a very big quarrel with PEPPER~

seems like he had gone mad recently.

so i'm not going to ask PEPPER for any help.

if he so going to make noise again, i swear i will hum him upside down.

after all, i'm bigger size than PEPPER.

btw there is also a new member too.

it's DOUGIE GIRL( my sister)

LOLS! guess what. yesterday DOUGIE GIRL spill F&N GRAPE onto PRINCE asshole

fcuk man-,- like as if i've urine in the car.

you know what is the best part for yesterday outting?

ALASKAN told DOUGIE GIRL about caterpillar without hair.

been telling her all the craps can. yet she still dun catch the ball.

and this is the latest news!

ALASKAN was DOUGIE GIRL's boyfriend.

OMGGG!! the feel was like a father and daughter can.

but seems like DOUGIE GIRL acceptted it. unBELIEVEABLE!!

btw today is DOUGIE GIRL 11th birthday!

and tomorrow is my MOTHER birthday

a day gap from each other.

so let's just wish DOUGIE GIRL HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

her admirer even gave her $10 to spend.

GOSH! i dunno what to say.

2009-10-19T21:49:00.002+08:00

today staying home the whole day.

so addicted to a show.

wow! the actor is so damn handsome.

so didn't really do much today.

slacking all the way at home.

2009-10-15T19:58:00.002+08:00

sometime dog really is a friend of man kind

but after yesterday of one day trip with my friend.

i realise that dog is so sickening.

when they are mad!

i had met a dog, was barking all the way.

and was called pepper.

one day i got to call my future dog name SALT!

cute huh?

this pepper had a friend name prince.

they were so damn cute.

when pepper bark, the prince will help us to shut him up.

by humming him.

as in fcuk his backside.

cause both of them are male. so they only had to use the backside.

live some more.

i was laughing all the way.

cause pepper love to step one yaya.

so prince made him xia suay.

LOLS! love prince alot man.

his so helpful and so beautiful. really hope i had one of those breed.

totally, we drove 9 dogs in a van.

some were cute but some looks like alien can.

the fur was either botak or half cut, left the head with fur alone.

and there's this super cute dog which i hug him for the whole journey.

his owner was a chao ah gua.

so does the dog.

the dog was so scared in the car that he was shivering all the way man.

manage to cool him down for a few second b ut then he started to shiver again

my friend even said he had the same character as his owner.

scared die! walan eh, dog also will scared can.

but his the only dog that i adore the most.

quiet and cute. i even took the photo of it. as i'm so going to miss him.

btw his name is called dougie. cute name right?

guess i realise that even though i dun have someone to be with,

dog can still accompany us human.

they are the best, cause they will always stay loyal and never leave you.

and i swear i'm so going to get a dog.

so when i'm stress they will be my listening ears.

after the whole day trip, though it was tired as i had to get up by 4pm.

but it was worth it hanging around with dogs.

one day, i'm so going to follow my friend again.

THANKS ANDYYY!!!

2009-10-12T17:33:00.002+08:00

finally, exam had ended and i'm so going to feel bored.

lazy to go out and lazy to blog.

hopefully, something could just catch my attention.

later had to go to mum's place

cause will be fetching my enemy tmr morning to school

how sweet can i be.

just hopefully, she will really know how to think

been couselling her for a period of time

but it seems like nothing had been in her brain.

felt so worried for her

please enemy. think carefully.

i dun wanna you to go to the wrong path.

there isn't wrong to be curious.

but what you are doing is not the right way.

everybody is guiding you

haven't you see that?

i really hope you wont be so stupid to waste all my effort.

your mum and i will be looking forward for your changes.

lastly, i love you.

2009-10-05T14:25:00.003+08:00

hais. few days ago just break with bi.

he said that i dun trust him.

so must why break.

i had nothing to say but to agree it.

maybe it was my fault.

but i'm so going to look on the bright side.

cause i knew that no matter how much i like him.

he wont be back.

actually, wanted to make him a puzzle and give it to him.

but it wasn't necessary anymore.

so i just got to let him go.

just hope that he will learn how to think mature.

if he got any future girlfriend, den i just wish him all the best.

hopefully, he will learn how to treasure the girl.

i've gave up.

2009-09-30T23:53:00.002+08:00

hais. what happen to bi?

he's always treating me hot and cold.

i'm trying to tolerate it.

but the way you treat me isn't really very nice.

i wanted to understand you.

but i wasn't sure if you are treating me seriously.

i tried to trust you.

i really tried. but this is suffering.

i couldn't take it but i can't bear to let go.

maybe you never know that how much i actually likes you

cause never once did i speak up.

people ask me to break up.

but i can't do it.

how? i'm really having headache!

2009-09-26T23:40:00.002+08:00

been so freak out with work and work

heard from my friends that sec 4 been having holidday right now

i wonder does it appeal to my school too?

last few months since i went to school.

they had been giving lesson after lesson

between 2pm to 6pm

it's so late.

if there really is holiday for my school.

i dun think the school with give us a break.

been stressing us for the N level.

even though it's for our own good.

but HELLO?! we need a break too.

we aren't robots that can work 365 days?

even robots had to take a break right?

but just my own opinion.

though previously i think that working would be fun

but it isn't what it seems at all

it's so tiring and i had to manage my own anger

some customers are really so FCUK UP!

but there isn't any choice.

got to earn a living right?

everybody knows that singapore is a small country

but yet the expenses are real expensive for us

can't really stand it.

my dad always says in mandarin.

"the things are getting more expensive, but our salary will never rise'

actually, it's quite true.

i wonder...

when will singaporean wont be so kiasu and cheap cake about money

money do harm alot of bonding

scientist said, the worst invention is 'plastic bag'

but i dun really think so.

i think that money is much more worst.

cause of money, people committed crime.

family bonding is being affected

more begger are lying around the streets.

though the government could provide us some subsidies.

but how much could they prove?

after all, it isn't enough.

plus we need to go through so much paper work.

and how many working days do they need to approve it?

that's the problem.

and if i had just one wish, i really hope i could burn those killing money!

2009-09-25T10:49:00.002+08:00

it's been awhile since i blogged.
been working these few days.
tuesday went to gracehaven to sign discharge form.
really will start to miss them so much.
all the ups and downs we had been through together.
it really is a tough period with you guys.
although we would still quarrel at times.
but all of it are worth it.
thanks.
anyway,going to work very soon.
blog next time

2009-09-16T20:42:00.003+08:00

wow! another 4 more days to discharge.
i'm so super duper excited can.
really hope that everything will go smoothly lorhs.
hais. then will be quite busy this few days lorhs.
so wont be blogging so often

2009-09-10T23:47:00.002+08:00

TO: spammer

thanks for making my blog so busy man.

but anyway, so what if i had attitude?

does it matter with you all?

furthermore, if you all wasn't happy about it

dun need to come and see my blog.

i didn't invite you all to come here and view it.

you yourself wanna get angry about it.

harm body nia marhs.

so what if you all thinks that he wasn't like this?

it was your point of view.

i had my point of view too what.

so what makes you all thinks that i can't let go.

so what if your didi dunno or know?

i dun even care about it at all.

who is the one who can't let go.

cause of all this wanna tio?

dun you think it is so childish?

wasting so much time just to spam my blog which you think is enjoying?

what a joke man.

think for yourself larhs.

if you still continue to spam then so be it?

i will still continue to enjoy it.

hate me for all you wan, cause you all are not related to me.

KP: although, i dunno who are you. but thanks anyway.

2009-09-07T14:39:00.002+08:00

today had my chinese N level paper one and two

wasn't that hard actually.

so it's not so bad after all. but still got many wrong answer.

can't believe that man~

btw read someone's blog and he was saying how ''innocent'' he is.

OMG!!! can't believe that can

but anyway, after all they are his friends.

it's natural they will support you larhs.

friends are like this what.

so what if you dun have attitude problem to them?

everybody has a attitude problem. so does me.

so stop hiding the fact that you dun have.

can't stand your action and i can't stand the way you talk.

that's for sure. the person who lost is you.

cause i played you out.

understand?

so stop pretending that you are the winning while you are not

just trying to imagine things of yourself.

i'm direct and i always does.

but it isn't neccesary to talk anymore. cause it's a waste of time.

if you wanna know why let me tell you directly what is the problem.

you are a attention seeker. whatever you do, you wan people to notice you

you talks like a gay and act like one too.

you are so irritating. when i get angry, you keep irritate me with your big eyes.

it really disgust me.

you are a liar. who bomb things like nobody business.

thinking of your action makes me feel disgusted and laugh at the same time.

so that is your problem

cause you dun act like a man!

2009-09-06T22:10:00.002+08:00

HELLO. here to blog again.

wasn't able to blog last few weeks.

cause my computer had some problem.

anyway, having my homeleave till 13 sept.

i was overjoy man!

got to discharge soon. can't wait sia.

btw today went to look for racheal at yew tee

fetched her from work. den we went to bukit panjang and walk

suppose somebody suppose to come and look for me

yet he didn't turn up.

waited for hours man. clever of him

and added full of lies.

what a joke huh?

was so damn mad can.

but anyway, it's alright.

he's just a dog to me.

so that all for today.

2009-08-23T15:36:00.002+08:00

currently in my grandma house today.
nothing much to do, so during tha late afternoon i left my house
anw, so bored lorhs.
long homeleave might me happy.
but is also bored due to too many time
hopefully i could faster get out of gracehaven
so that i could quickly work.
earn money as my dad going to migrant very soon
sad case uh? sure will miss him.

2009-08-21T21:12:00.002+08:00

finally homeleave le.

have been tolerating many staff these few days

dunno what happen to them.

whatever i do, is like i was wrong.

just hope i could stand this another one month and it would be over man!~

not going to visit them anymore.

living there is a deadly hell.

still say what HEAVEN. not even abit can!

anyway, finally completed my prelim.

looking forward to N level.

faster over, faster i could find a job. YEAH!

today had a big quarrel right after coming out from gracehaven

and confirm my dad is going to go overseas.

he got the VISA form. LOLS.

so sad huh? wa, i really dunno where should i go after that

i'm not going to go back my mum.

so not going to. hated her.

has been quarrel my dad, related to her. fcuk right.

stress until my pimples all started to pop up lorhs.

WHAT THE HELL!!!

many things really changed alot ever since this week.

dunno why will it become like that lorhs.

i wanna faster get lost of gracehaven and it's the end man

so not going to get myself lock up inside again.

2009-08-18T14:35:00.002+08:00

back to blogging le.

sian larhs. today going back to gracehaven le.

hopefully, next week i could be able to come out again.

if not, i sure very shag de

anw, someone is not happy with my blog huh?

oh, so sad. if someone is not happy.

dun come and view my blog larhs.

i dun give a fcuk about it whether you care or not.

i like to post what is my business.

you dun have to see it if you dun like

so what for writing in my tagbox to comment about it

i didnt mention your name, so what for you tio sio?

i dun need your comment either.

btw today PRELIM, fail for sure

didn't study and my geography textbook went missing.

so guess, i dun need my book anymore.

ok. stop till here le.

2009-08-16T19:35:00.000+08:00

HELLO. here to blog again. LOLS!
i'm so damn tired can.
was studying halfway and i was turn off.
was like WHAT THE FCUK!
so gave up lorhs. tomorrow science prelim FAIL arhs!
MARVELLOUS right?
btw seperate with someone lurhs.
felt much better. couldnt had stand him anymore
maybe this really cant work out between us.
the feeling wasnt the same.
i thought we could but actually,
we cant. you said that my breaking skill is lousy?
so what? do you think i care anymore?
i dun cause the feeling isnt there.
you said is weird today.
yes it is. you cant stand my attitude den fcuk off man.
dun act like one as if you could
when you hold my hand, i couldnt feel anything
you was right. it was fake.
i dun wanna say it face to face, could i dun wanna handle anything
that why i choose to do it through SMS.
so what is the big deal of you saying as if i was a BITCH?
please larhs. i dun give a damn about it man.
hmms, dun worried. i wont talk a single thing about what you told me.
cause i dun bother about it at all.
cause i'm not going to bother about you anymore

2009-08-16T08:16:00.002+08:00

i'm so bored!~

actually planned to study with christopher today

but some pig still refuse to wake up. LOLS

and my dad is so freaking bored that he had to disturb me while i'm sleeping

what a childish dad i had

but anyway, HIS CUTE!~

sian lorhs. yesterday someone slept the whole day at home.

what a pig! eat, sleep, eat, sleep

that is all that person can do.

must why eat shit sua..

WA! i'm so bored can.

can't imagine that i woke up so early this morning.

anw, yesterday is the worst day ever!

didn't do much thing at all.

all the way SLACKING.

shit right? & tmr i had to go to school. imagine how early, i had to wake up?

can't believe it.

anw, that's for all

2009-08-15T09:55:00.002+08:00

finish came out for homeleave yesterday.

but didn't had a chance to post till this morning

anw, this homeleave might be a boring one.

everybody is not free to meet me.

shit right? btw got to study tmr for my monday chem and phy prelim paper.

shock right? but anyway, got to make my dad proud for once.

i'm so bored at home

& yet nobody is available today.

WHAT THE HELL!

anw, my dad say i'm gonna discharge soon.

yeah, so wont be having too much time.

got to work work and study.

LOLS! have to work to survive.

sad case huh? guess will be super stress and all my hair will starts to drop

hahas. ok larhs. guess that's for today

2009-08-12T17:19:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired and sticky right now.

had been rushing for my presentation board the whole afternoon.

went to dad's factory and collect my folio.

if not, sure got zero marks for my folio.

dun wish to get any egss back.

so after that i rushed back to school and complete all the leftovers.

today got prelim for chinese.

but i forgotten till this morning i started to realise

and how stupid i got to bring my pe t-shirt.

LOLS. too blur this morning and started to pack everything in my bag

didn't use it right from the beginning.

brought to school for nothing.

anw, this prelim paper 1 for chinese.

i'm going to fail anyway...

had given up cause i got cope up halfway.

ended up, i left it not even until one page and ended it in a no link thing.

shit me right? guess my 60 marks is flying away.

yesterday went back to gracehaven and heard that peishan got called back

WTH! was she that stupid?

heard that she wonder around while she having 1 week MC.

was very shock to heard that.

hopefully, she wont get cut for this.

i'm worried for her.

anyway, someone got sick too.

sad for him man.

got some rashes? i think

hope you will be fine.

dun be stupid to eat beef if you are allegic to them.

understand? learn to be more clever alright?

rest at home and dun anyhow go out.

dun wan you to catch any flu from anyone.

later tio H1N1 more worst right?

so be good and stay at home.

take the chances to study hard.

i will always support you,

but even if i do fail for the subject.

dun lie to me say you also fail.

i dun like. so dun be stupid can?

ok larhs. got to go back gracehaven soon.

will update again as long as i get to use computer.

wish me luck for tomorrow SOCIAL STUDIES PRELIM!!!

2009-08-09T23:24:00.003+08:00

LOLS. sian larhs. today went to vivo AGAIN!~

went out with siaobaobao they all.

super boring can!

i'm so super bored right now.

nothing much to say today.

my blue black is so damn pain can.

cause somebody kick my leg.

BLOODY HELL!

kinda of tired too lorhs.

still have to talk to someone.

lols. cause he whole day stay at home.

pity him larhs.

cause mother birthday what.

no choice lorhs.

KE LIAN ARHS!!!

2009-08-07T22:51:00.002+08:00

wa! i very shag lerhs.

cannot find a friend to come along with me.

to SENTOSA. what the hell-,-

i very sot siol. getting very stress up can.

jiner didn't call me, that is the big problem can!

really very stress right now lorhs.

i also very pekchek can. someone keep nagging.

wanna kill that person lerhs. waste my outgoing call.

fcuk man!~ didn't expect that to happen.

MARVELLOUS LERHS!

2009-08-06T15:31:00.003+08:00

LOLS! now having dnt coursework lerhs.

but kind of turn off when my project is lost!

i dun feel like redo-ing it can.

i've wasted too much time on it already.

anw, today i didn't had any phone to use.

WTH!!! my friend forgot to bring for me.

really get very irritated siol.

didn't get to contact someone.

stupid lerhs. then i didn't remember his number.

really get very irritated lerhs.

btw alot of things happen recently, i dunno what to do to solve it.

so decided not to care so much already. LOLS.

maybe that is the best choice anyway.

hmms, tomorrow is national day celebration in school.

i wonder when will i be going back for homeleave.

since there are 3 days public holiday.

getting very excited in it. LOLS.

hopefully, gracehaven would give long homeleave.

to someone:

sorry that i didn't get to contact you

didn't get your number out and neither do i got my phone.

as my friend didn't brought it to school.

hope you are not worried ok.

tried many numbers.

but neither of it are you, guess my memories is get worst huh?

will contact you as soon as i got your number de.

to some ungrateful people:

didn't expect you will lie to me.

it's quite a surprise anyway.

thanks for making me realise what kind of person you are actually.

i was shocked about it.

but i did give you a chance to spill it out.

if you really dun wanna take it.

then it alright.

i knew what kind of friend you are after all.

beginning, i dun believe in that.

but after this incident, i'm clear with my mindset

i regretted for not believing others.

cause it's you who prove me wrong.

thanks alot man.

you wasn't the same like the past anymore.

you had change alot.

2009-08-04T15:34:00.002+08:00

currently in school right now.

doing my dnt project can.

anw, got a very bad news lorhs.

my darling fall down from the chair, kind of heart pain lerhs.

hope her backbone is not hurt.

btw got very frustrated today can.

somebody tried to flirt around.

i was thinking, you who nobody she could find but him?

just because she is his gan mei, so what?

it's just a status after all.

i was close to you, yet you prefer to contact him but me.

why? and yet you asked him where am i.

for what? to find topic and talk to him?

if that is so, be straight forward man.

you dun have to turn a big round after all.

you dunno about him, so what makes you think he is available?

it's getting on my nerve.

not only because of him.

but also because i've looked for you so long yet didn't expect that you would prefer to contact him.

you had change alot compared to the past, why?

we really drift alot and you let me realise that.

thanks man!

2009-08-03T10:04:00.002+08:00

wa, super boring at home can.

nothing much to do.

later still have to go back gracehaven.

SHAGG-ED!!

hhey, guess what.

yesterday night, i was watch one stupid ghost movie

i watched halfway and i off it.

cause i got hum dao scared can.

didn't really like ghost movie.

cause would start to anyhow think.

i dun like it. so ended up, i asked my dad to off it lorhs.

anw, i also dun remember i got pick up the 2nd curfew not.

cause i had fallen asleep siol.

abit scared can, furthermore last night woke up twice.

due to the aircon is too cold. i off my fan.

den early in the morning got woke up, cause my uncles thought i overslept

is like what the FCUK!~

woke up at 8plus.

actually wanted to sleep again,

but somebody msg just keep replying.

ended, decide to wake up and when to jurongpoint and buy my breakfast

LOLS! not suppose to go out due to gracehaven quarantine.

but no food at home, so just buy a take away kind lorhs.

i am so pathetic larhs

2009-08-01T07:58:00.002+08:00

came back from homeleave yesterday night.

WOW! it's like so lucky that i wasn't being quarantine inside

supposing they wanted us to stay indoor for 7 days without going to school

and guess what?! it's in GRACEHAVEN!!!

could have gone mad inside.

so lucky, they decided to let us go back.

we was like so damn happy can.

but the requirement is that we had to stay at home throughout the whole homeleave.

WHAT THE HELL!!!!

it's so super boring at home.

couldn't believe that.

and we had sign undertaking for it. GREAT!

can't believe that lorhs.

it's so super boring at home.

i can't believe it man!

2009-07-25T23:27:00.002+08:00

yawn. today is a so damn tired day man.

woke up at 7.30am and slack around till 10 plus at home

planned to meet christopher.

accompany him to lavender and renew his student pass.

it's like so damn fast larhs.

so thought of going there to vist my grandma too.

super duper miss her man!!~~

chatted with her for awhile.

& guess what, i saw my ''mum'' ( what the hell larhs)

we are just like stranger

i could just happily ignore her and so does she.

so maybe that is what i'm going to continue and do so.

although she is my legal mother, but so what?

i dun need someone like her to survive right?

glad that i'm so fortunate to had such a great dad now

i dun need a ridiculous mum like you,

people asked me, where is my mum?

but i could just jolly well say she's dead.

even though my dad would be leaving singapore and never come back

i would still depend on myself and not some kind of irresponsible mum.

who doesn't give a damn about her own child and yet step one big fcuk

in front of outsiders? sending your own daughter to gracehaven

& made up some fcuking reasons that i threaten my grandma using a pen knife?

OH please larhs. you could just make up this lies without blinking your eyes man.

it's such pathetic of me to have such a dreadful mum like you.

but nevermind, after all i'm glad i realised early.

actually, i dun really need money to get my happiness.

i'm not like you, who sees money more important than anything.

who love your own boyfriend money and throw away your pride.

i'm so much different from you.

i had more pride than you do. i will cherish my loved ones.

i would never abandon my own child just for money.

but you will, & thats our different.

without money, without you. i could still survive and it makes me realise that money couldn''t buy everything.

oh, anyway. today went to watch '' MURDERER''

it's so damn cock man...

the show is like SHIT~~ totally riduculous.

dunno what makes me wanted to watch that movie.

i was wondering, would a electric driller drill through a body?

i dun think so larhs. tempted to try it but afraid might got hurt.

what the fcuk! i'm not going to get myself anymore scars

hurted my bloody hand cause of HOT GLUE GUN.

dun wanna drill a hole through my hand. you bet i would cry man.

guess nobody is as stupid as me huh?

but nevermind, i'm just like my dad.

my dad told me that when he was young,

he wanted to find out why light bulb would give out light.

so he took out the bulb from the ceiling and place his hand there.

& guess what's next?

he on the bloody switch and got electricuted.

really is so WHAT THE HELL larhs.

but anyway, his cute man.

always love my dad.

WOW! guess what.

i was so damn bored that i was talking craps with christopher when on our way home.

LOLS~ suddenly JESUS came into my mind.

& was trying to imagine that we are dead and wanted to visit JESUS.

while waiting for train, i told him we need to wait for registration.

is like super craps larhs. furthermore,

i tried to imagine that i had long ''HU XU''

didn't expect i would turn out to look like a ''BA YI'' larhs.

just lack of my scarf. then i would wrap around my head.

LOLS! but after all today is such a crappy day. though only got the two of us.

2009-07-24T21:16:00.002+08:00

i'm out for homeleave again.

what a great job i'm doing right now.

hmms, had my N level chinese oral this afternoon.

it's like so damn difficult larhs.

guess there is a higher percentage to fail for my oral.

OOOOMMMMGGGG!!!!~~~~~~~~~

didn't even realise the whole day that actually,i'm sick.

what a day. it's been so long since i got sick.

i thought i might be kind of happy.

but i wasn't instead, i felt terrible.

& my uncle is so damn irritating larhs.

afraid of me getting H1N1. what the hell!

if it's so easy to get, i might strike TOTO now.

arghhh!~i'm just feeling so bad right now.

it really is a wrong timing siol.

hope i could get well soon.

anyway, big news man!!!

HE had a new girlfriend.

gosh! he is such a flirt. didn't realise that actually, he's with his classmate.

such a pathetic that he had to find someone in his class.

OH MY GOSH!

it really make me feel so disgusted by your nonsense larhs.

guess your current girlfriend is also blind like me.

but anyway, i would just wish you all the best.

guess you wont be long with her with your fcuked up face.

hanging on your fcuked up brain.

tata~~ enjoy with your girlfriend huh?

lets see how long you could maintain in.

OHHH!!! can't help it with my stupid flu.

what the hell! i dun care lorhs.

i would go out tomorrow no matter what.

2009-07-19T14:57:00.003+08:00

i still miss you although you dun miss me.

i still need you even though you could move on without me.

i still love you even though you dun spare a thought for me.

but all i hope is that you would be happy in the way you want it to be

in finding someone who would truely love you

and could get along with you.

i couldn't be with you anymore but it's fine with me.

cause i wanted to see you smile.

you had this special smile that always brighten my days.

never did i know that it would last so short.

but trust me, i really cherish it even though you dun.

when you told me your feeling fade, it really makes me fall

i'm completely weak even though i look like i'm strong.

although it's just a month but i'm getting so use to you.

of your exist but now with your absence,

i feel so low and weak.

CASSANDRA, what happen to you?

i thought you are strong?

i thought you could give up?

i'm so fcuking confuse in whatever i'm doing now.

i got to get out of these messy.

i hope i could stop my feelings.

i hope i could forget you.

but somewhere just stop me from doing that.

& i realise that actually, i dun wan to forget you.

2nd time of getting hurt this years.

i'm exhasted by all these.

it's killing me but i can't do a thing about it.

have you feel the sorrows and pain in your heart?

when you just feel like pulling it out?

when you feel that your heart is shrinking?

& you can't breathe.

this is what i feel now. it hurts.

even though how painful i am, you wont be there anymore.

so let the pain just feel fade away and be forgotten.

2009-07-18T23:33:00.002+08:00

hello. back to posting again.

hmms, currently bsy with my dnt coursework.

getting very frustrated with it.

so mafan. do this do that.

got quite a number of burns and cuts.

WHAT THE HELL!!!

my beautiful hand siol...

hmms, got a very shocking news from my EX boyfriend.

finally know the reason why he became like that.

due to feeling fade.

so ya lorhs. decided to let go for today onwards.

dun worry, i'm not sad neither do i bother.

cause all the fcuking sweet talks are just bullshit.

you promised this and that.

but i realise that you are just trying to kill your fcuking time.

so when you discharge, i'm just a rubbish to you.

please larhs. get the fcuk out of my life man.

you really suck the blood out of me.

thanks alot. i'm just a stupid dumb ass.

to believe in all this. should have took my dad's advice man.

wanted to find a lasting relationship?

HEY, suck my father's cock larhs.

talk all this fcuking bullshit man.

this type of sweet talk is my last time i gonna heard from guys.

i swear. you just let me drop into you fcuking trap.

so got to climb up again.

i might love you but trust me, i would soon get out of it.

i might be faithful but truth me, not you anymore.

all the effort i've made is just a fcuking waste of my time.

i used my heart and effort just to made the present for you,

ended up what i got is this?

COCK SIA.

i believe i would find a better guy than you.

who would treat me well and appreciate what i've done.

try your fcuking luck and find one for yourself.

i bet that you couldnt find either of it.

who would send you home and helped you when you quarrel with your friends.

who would spend time and make a fcuking thing for you.

you wasn't that lucky cause you wont appreciate it.

so just fcuk your ass off my life.

cause you are just a ungrateful dog to me.

i admit that i still love you, but i would soon erase you off my mind

cause keeping you a space would never benefit me.

you would only pollute my mind man.

HMMS, i've cool down right now. LOLS.

feeling so damn shuang larhs.

anw, today just realise that actually, there isnt true friends.

like i always say. even though how long you had been together.

it's nothing, but only shit.

years are nothing, cause they are just times that runs.

so what if i't's 8 or 10 years?

they would still betray you and ka your jiao wei.

it's their mouth and their life.

what they wanna say is their choice.

so let it be. true friends are hard to find- people always say

if they are meant to be your true friends, they would be.

you dun have to claim them as one.

people would change and they are fake.

cause they just wanna please people.

that why they choose to do that.

but actually, they dun appreciate.

only when they got stab on the back, then they know how painful it is when they do it to others.

as people always says '' what comes around goes around''

it's the fact what. so we dun have to make any effort for them

once or twice we could still forgive.

cause we are doing a good deed.

but when they dun take the chance,

ask them to fcuk the hell off from our life.

they would only pollute our mind and it would only distract you.

from all your studies and everything.

so whenever we wanted to find a friend.

think wisely. and ask yourself.

are they worthy? are they the one for you to claim as a good friend?

will they be there for you whenever you need them?

can they fufil what a friend need? honest, truthful and grateful?

so be wisely when choosing friends.

cause this world is realistic.

2009-07-11T16:43:00.003+08:00

came out from homeleave.

but have to return back tomorrow at 4pm.

WHAT THE HELL.

so bored lorhs. nothing to do.

so thought of blogging lorhs.

hais. he still wanna avoid me.

am i a MONSTER? why cant he just stop doing this?

i really dun understand siol.

had tried to put in effort in him, yet this is what happen.

broke up with him and now avoiding me?

thanks lerhs. i'm just like one bloody dog keep on msging you but no replys.

what is this? your feeling fade just say larhs,

does it necessary to do all this thing not?

i'm frustrated and dissappointed right now.

what is going on with you?

can you answer my question?

i wanna settle down.

not fooling around. can you just understand?

hais. i dunno larhs. think for yourself.

i didn't owe you anything.

neither do i owe you any living.

i just wanna PATCH!!!!

2009-07-05T12:52:00.002+08:00

this isn't what i want.

but i've broke up with him le. cant really find it stable with him anymore

i lied to him, by telling him my feeling fade le.

but i didn't. i knew it is hard to let go.

i love him, that why i had to let go.

you see the picture?

really is so frustrating to see him in this manner.

i know i cant be there for him.
& he also knew it that i couldn't do any help

so let nature takes it course barhs.

no point holding on anymore le.

RICHARD TAO CHEN HAO;

i'm so sorry for lying to you about it.

really hope that you would still move on without me

although i can't right now.

but i will still learn how to.

you successfully hold me up and also break me down.

got to award you a gold medal le.

you walked away suddenly and leave me alone.

so i had to cross my heart and make a break up.

i make the initative to cause i knew you can't say it.

i prove alot to me, and i dunno why it hurts me.

beginning, it wasn't like this.

i thought i could give up without leaving a tears.

but slowly as times goes by, i realise that actually,

i can't. maybe it's time to cool down.

thinking what you really want in your life.

i'm always worried about you.

but anytime you need me, i would be there for you.

2009-07-04T23:37:00.001+08:00

things had change alot.

real lot about him nowadays find it that we can't get along actually.

hais.didn't meet him today.maybe tomorrow but not long.

he can't give me the time i need.

have been thinking alot thru out the homeleave.reflected many things.

i've been asking myself, am i ready for that?

guess we really need time to cool ourselves out.

it's been stressing me out right now.

the burden is haunting me.

but yet he dun even bother about it.

WHAT THE FCUK is this?

it really hurts when i had to been through all this without knowing why.is it worth it not?

afraid of this, afraid of that.

while everything is just useless.

people tell me not to think so much.but how?

i'm a human being.i had a feeling.

if i got the choice.i wont have want to go thru all this.

he is stress. i understand.

but so do i!

if i dun care about you, i wont have bothered so much and ask you about it.

you said you can''t forget certain things.but what is that?

can't you just talk it out?it really is getting on my nerve.

you understand?

stop making this relationship so unstable can?

too many question that need you to answer.

but neither of it, you bothered to.what the hell!!!!~~~

thanks alot lerhs. for bring so much pain.

I REALLY DESERVE IT!!!

2009-07-03T23:01:00.002+08:00

hais. very stress these days.

dunno what happen to me. feeling so UNLUCKY siol.

anw, came out from hostel jiu some sort of quarrel with my boyfriend.

what the hell!!!!

feeling very worried. dun understand why after he discharge jiu like that.

ask him what happen, he dun wanna say.

what is this???

show me attitude when i didn't even do anything?

i really getting afraid. WHY?

what happen to you? did i do something wrong?

i really hope i could make it right this time.

i gave up on HIM just for you. yet this is what i get in return?

you said you will treasure me, yet now what are you doing to me?

hais. guess tomorrow cannot meet him le.

his meeting his friends. came out one week once, but yet you dun appreciate it.

really dunno what you are thinking lorhs.

i hate this part right here.

things is really getting out of hand.

i cant stand it anymore.

but yet you wasnt there for me..

i dun deserve all this, but now i'm suffering.

WHAT TO DO????

2009-06-25T21:17:00.002+08:00

i'm kind of cock up right here.

dunno what am i thinking right now.

he didn't tell me somethings. which is neccesary that makes me so damn turn off larhs

i really dunno how to believe you furthermore.

i wanted to..but how?

you should tell me yourself, and not i have to ask you then you tell.

you haven come out. so i'm just planning to ask you.

to check whether you really will tell the truth not.

hopefully, you would just say the truth out.

it really turns me off at times when this kind of small matters makes me blows up.

i hope i could trust you but you makes me feel jealous and unsecure.

WHY??!!! i'm really not sure about you.

you are discharging very soon, i should be happy for you.

but i'm not. i'm worried. hearing about your past makes me scared.

WHY? i dunno either.

i know it's the past, i'm trying to ignore it as much as i could.

but no matter how, the trust isn't there at all.

i dun wanna trust anyone. not a single one.

so why can't you just let me trying to trust you without any reason?

does all the things that you said is sweet talks?

does it mean something to you or what?

i need someone to tell me what i need to do?!!!

i so fcuking stress right now!

HHHHHEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPP!!!~~~

this isn't what i want from you.

this is not what i want from the start

all i wanted is to make things right.

thats all i want.

i wanted to let go, i dunno why.

but i'm afraid to hurt both of us.

i really dunno what to do.

I"M SO TURN OFF!!!!

2009-06-23T11:02:00.002+08:00

HEY! now in school. doing nothing much

ohhh!~ i'm so STUPID larhs.

today started school at 8am as per normal. but I THOUGHT it started at 10am

ji tao die le lorhs. WA!!! really got something wrong with my stupid brain siol.

anw, sunday fetch my boyfriend back to HOSTEL.

felt aching when i had to see him just when off.

i swear not to fetch him back anymore.

dun wanna feel the pain. started to get fragile day by day.

his discharging soon. YEAH!!~ so guess his the one waiting for me to come out le

GOT SOME BAD NEWS HERE.

the fish that i brought for him for our anniversary had DIED!!!

WTH!!! what a pity siol.

he said he wanna buy the same exact fish.

wondering is he joking not. LOLS!

hais. really feel so boring without him.

also found out that actually, MY friend is her EX BOYFRIEND.

what a coincident HUH? got to ask him when he come out for his LAST HOMELEAVE.

next week, he will be having some compeition being held in PUGGOL.

hope he will win HUH. & loss all his fats....

he got to have more exercise alright..

hope WE could come out this week.

TRYING to behave myself.

2009-06-18T22:36:00.004+08:00

just came out from hostel.
this week will come out from thursday till monday.
ji tao shuang dao...
hmms, richard still haven come out.
sian lerhs.
dunno whether he come out on friday or saturday.
hopefully is friday evening barhs.
so long didnt blog le lorhs.
guess going to die soon. anw, many things happen
dun really bother so much.
this week maybe meeting some friends.
now school holiday but didn't really enjoying.
every single day got extra lesson.
tomorrow also got. tired lerhs.
hmms, now going to post the present that last week i gave richard.

2009-06-11T09:17:00.004+08:00

now currently in school. super tired. WTH!

anyway, yesterday saw him but didn't wanna make a glance.

afraid that i couldn't turn back after that.

dunno why still thinks of him.

OUR MEMORIES, OUR TIMES.

do miss it so much. but i guess he didn't care after all.

i just need to just take a break right now.

i still do miss you the same as the past.

btw aunty tracy yesterday night told me something about HIM.

why? why do i still care so much?

i really dunno.

it's been 5 months since we broke up, and i still can't get over with it.

still holding on to a hope on him.

okayokay. i just got to stop all this.

it's just time to grow up, right?

hmms, today i should be going home.

i guess soo.

still doing my crystal ball but planned to change to a FISH TANK!!

could imagine it. it's like super cute larhs.OMG!

in the progress of it right now...

done with the tank but still need the PHOTOS to complete it...

guess tomorrow would be done.

IF i get to go home today.

PRAY HARD.....

now looking for a suitable fish to put in my little fish tank.

SUPER DUPER excited...

hope it would be a success.

2009-06-09T14:09:00.002+08:00

LOLS. currently in school doing DnT project.

so thought of posting sommethings to kill time.

guess my blog is dying soon, SUPER DUPER SOON!!!

now searching for crystal ball. planned to do a hand make one..

kind of excited. didn't make before. LOLS.

would be posting the final work after i had done.

i would be getting some help from my teacher.

hope it would be a success.

hmms, FATHER'S DAY is round the corner.

hopefully, my friends are getting ready for their present.

HAHA. first time celebrating with my dad.

hope it would be a success

still got 2 more days to go till HOMELEAVE?

i guess. hope so. needed to rush for the crystal ball thingy.

wish me good luck alright.

2009-05-28T10:49:00.003+08:00

currently in school computer lab.
nothing much to do now. so decided to post something.
guess my blog is died le huh?
anyway, tomorrow going for parents meet.
get to see my dad. whoosh!
then it will be homeleave. yeah
hais. got to go church this week. city harvest.
WHAT THE HELL!!!
teacher ask me to go. tried to reject but hard.
sad huh?
hmms, dunno how long can i go on like this?
without him? btw junwen called me last saturday.
didn't really wanna talk much.
whats the use now?
i really dun wanna get involve with him anymore.
not scared, it's just that there is no use. alright?
i'm happy right now. cause HIS happy.
still miss him sometime but i know it's impossible now
i've just got to move on....

2009-05-17T00:35:00.002+08:00

things isnt going any smoother at all.

still having alot of conflict with many people.

i dunno whats wrong here.

but i really never do anything with that junwen.

i dunno why he spread all this but I REALLY NEVER

why nobody wanna believe me?

if i really done anything wrong, i'm sorry

but i really didn't do anything with him.

i denied that day, cause i really didn't do it.

once close but drifted so much. maybe it's all my fault.

if things really had to be this way, den i've nothing to say.

2009-05-03T13:10:00.002+08:00

here to blog again.

yesterday went to look for ANGUS, my daddy.

cause he promise me to meet me.

so i went to lakeside and wait for him.

then i accompany him to go back his house to change his clothes as he wanted to meet for his friend.

anyway, we went to YISHUN mrt station to meet his friend called RICHARD.

then started to head to SENGKANG to meet another guy.

so we slacked around at SENGKANG awhile lorhs.

when we went back to YISHUN, we went to walk around and a few people almost wanted to find us trouble.

but end up, didn't

anyway, alot of things happen after that.

but lazy to blog about it.

so when home and watch tv until 2 plus and fall asleep

today wake up do nothing.

but it's kind of sad larhs. cause today had to go back gracehaven le.

uno is still angry of me. HOW?

i msg he le. but she dun wanna reply. sadded.

i miss her.

2009-04-30T23:05:00.003+08:00

hais. come out from homeleave le.

but it isn't the same.

quarrel with uno. cause of a new girl

i dunno why she is so angry about it.

i'm not showing her any attitude at all.

just dun get it. haven been receiving her call at all.

guess she is still angry about it ba.

but just hope she will enjoy her homeleave.

btw heard somethings. really shocked me

but i'm so confuse right now.

if uno is here, that would be great.

many things had happen this few days.

had drift with many people.

first siaobaobao then uno.

i really dunno what to do lorhs.

maybe this is fated to be like this.

anyway, i really miss you guys but i guess things will remain like this ba.

trying to mend everything but there isn't any use.

siaobaobao suddenly treated me very cold.

why? cause of ahsong? i dunno. but i really didn't wanna hong ahsong.

you said you believe me and you know but did you?

i dunno larhs. all i could say is i will never take my friend's boyfriend.

if all this time, i can't prove to you that i've nothing to say.

as for uno. i really dunno whats wrong.

i never wanted the girl to do anything.

you got it all wrong and i was just telling you.

maybe i've let you mistaken that i'm showing you attitude then i apologise.

but i really didn't meant all this.

if that still can't explain it then it's alright.

as i knew that i am not good at mending things back.

things really turn out wrong this days.

super stress. just pray hard that it would soon end.

2009-04-18T22:37:00.020+08:00

HELLO. back to homeleave.
today went out with UNO, DES, SIAOBAOBAO, AHSONG
i was like a light bulb.
saw that junxing le.
hmms, he look ok larhs. but still dunno should i or should i not?
but anw, dun care larhs.
guess what, GIMBOON never come out.
cause of smokerlyzer. sadded.
i miss him alot larhs.
so today let the photos do the talking...

I'm really happy with you. just that things always turn out weird

anw, you didn't go home this week.

cause of smokerlyzer, i keep telling myself to hate you

but i can't. cause the only reason is '' I LOVE YOU!''

2009-04-11T21:39:00.006+08:00

TODAY WENT OUT AT AROUND AFTERNOON.

meet UNO at JURONG EAST.
& guess what? we took the same train but never realise.
OMG! then went to the LIBRARY and return her book
then met her TWO SCHOOLMATE
we headed for lunch at a coffee shop.
although, i wanted to find somewhere with a air-condition place but just couldn't find
ended in a hot coffee shop
when to eat the fishball noodle.
super NOT NICE( i swear not to go there and eat EVER)
then, when we are apart from her SCHOOLMATE.
we went to meet CHOCOLATE.
planned to WATCH a movie.
so we meet her a SEMBAWANG.
then slack around as we are waiting for NO.7 and YANYI
but the most unlucky think is that, the cinema is CLOSED. WTH!
when NO.7 and YANYI came, we went to NOVENA instead
as it is easier for SIAOBAOBAO.as we were meeting her.
when we reached there, BARGAY also said wanted to meet.
she ended up with us.
we took many photos.
as if we are some kind of tourist.
but last minute, SIAOBAOBAO dun wanna come le.
cause of BARGAY as she dun like her.
SO DISAPPOINTED.
then we went to take more photos...
so let the photo talks..

without them, there will not be any laughter.
THANKS GUYS

2009-04-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

today early in the morning went to meet angus my daddy.
after that, we went to slack around
around afternoon, i went to meet my naughty student
pei her do her homework.
then when my daddy leave.
me and naughty student went to meet NO.7 and YANYI
we slack around at yishun.
actually, it's they all come and find me.
but cause of somebody, i had to went there.
then there is a good news today.
but can't spread around...
so let time tell everything. as it's not allow to be said.
so got to keep my mouth shut.
hmms, then we went to walk walk
and when home.
PS: for UNO
sorry. i promise wont do it again.
this is the first and the last
really. i dunno why
but i really can't forget HIM.
people always said, time heal everything.
then let it be ba.
i hope you will forgive me for that.
at least, i'm honest right?
SORRY!

2009-04-09T22:02:00.002+08:00

HELLO... this week homeleave till sunday lerhs.

shiok sia. but really kind of pity that i can't get to go out with HIM.

i wanted to msg him. but i really dun dare.

too scared le. i wanted to solve everything but i can't

he doesn't seems to care about me.

sad huh? i want to wait for him.

but i really dunno how much pain i could get by waiting.

so today went back to BOONLAY with UNO & MY DAD.

then i went to eat with UNO and HER MUM.

after that, i just went home already.

super no life huh?

without HIM, it's really getting more and more boring during homeleave.

rather be in GRACEHAVEN then home.

but i can't, it will only drive me crazy.

so no choice.

wondering what is he doing?

talking to his GIRLFRIEND?

*jealous jealous jealous*

CHOCOLATE, today it's our one year anniversary lerhs.

really miss your voice.

without you, our side is totally died.

but nevermind, homeleave still can get to heard your voice de.

DEAR, I MISS YOU ALOT ALOT

2009-04-04T22:53:00.003+08:00

today super boring.
when to TAMPINES to look for UNO and his BOYFRIEND.
after that, i went to sentosa with them to meet ASH and XUAN and JIAXING
actually, i went there cause i wanna see HIM.
but end up, UNO asked me a question '' what if i ask you to give up on him?"
i asked why. but she didn't tell me.
i dunno why my heart start to ache.
& started to avoid him.
at first, i promise UNO to act normal.
ended up, i can't.
saw him, i''m really very happy BUT at the same time...
my heart also ache.
cause whenever i thought about him having a GIRLFRIEND.
it really make me ache.
i tried to msg him several times.
but he dun really feel like msg me. so kind of ended the conversation quite fast
after that, we went to PLAZA SINGAPURA to walk.
i didn't even talk to him larhs.
dun have the guts to.
i really miss him alot. but whenever i saw him, something just choked my mouth.
actually, i wanted to accompany him to cut his hair but i didn't.
cause i cannot stop the pain anymore.
so UNO have to pangseh her BOYFRIEND and pei me.
sweet of her huh?
but she damn irritating sia.
keep pulling me just to find a WRAPPING PAPER.
make my leg pain like hell.
then we got a 'COLD WAR'.
kind of funny.
so thats for today. got to had my supper le
lastly, dunno gimboon got saw my bluetooth name not.(hope not)

DEAR, I STILL LOVE YOU

2009-04-03T22:22:00.002+08:00

just came out from homeleave.

this week it's first friday, so i got to go home.

today get sports carnival sia.

my class got quite alot of medal.

but too bad, i didn't participate.

msg HIM le but he didn't reply.

dunno whether he got homeleave not.

miss him like fcuk sia.

BOY, do you really had girlfriend already?

i'm really sorry that i had say you are a HONGSTER.

i really didn't mean it.

just that i wanted you to think that i have given up on you that why.

i was in the wrong.

but i just can't stand all the pain.

i dunno why.

i hope you will forgive me.

maybe you really do have a girlfriend.

then i give you all my blessing.

but i will still wait for you to accept me again.

just hope by then, you still love me.

just wanna tell you, i miss you.

lastly, i'm really sorry.

hais. met Racheal just now.

when to eat with her and went home le.

today didn't saw him sia.

hope he will msg me.

CASSANDRA PRAY HARD

2009-03-22T08:36:00.002+08:00

hais. here to blog yesterday thingy.
came out and when to LAVENDAR to take my clothes
as i've moved to BOONLAY.
far huh? but just wanna stop myself from thinking about the past.
so it's kind of ok to me larhs.
i misses though days and he always is the one who keep me from moving.
but guess now, there is no point anymore.
so after reaching my new home, i went to JURONG POINT.
with my dad.
as he promised me that he will buy me a new phone as my birthday present.
so i've brought a LGKU99oR.
my dad even agree to sign me the contact.
great huh?
hmms, so we went shopping around and brought some necessary item.
after that, i went to meet UNO&DAVE.
they came and look for me.
so i went to eat dinner with them and went back home.
btw tomorrow is my birthday, how i hope that HE will be there for me.
but i knew that it's impossible.
so just gonna wish myself HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
anw, just received dewei's letter.
he send me a birthday card that he have made.
how sweet huh?
he kind of tell me that he fall for me since 3 years ago.
i dunno is it true not.
but i'm happy. we didn't stead yet.
cause we have to come out then say.
so now waiting me JUNHONG.
he came down to find me. sweet huh?
so because i wanted to kill time, just thought of blogging lorhs.

DEAR, i still love you but i''m sorry that i've lied that i dun love you anymore.

2009-03-16T12:46:00.002+08:00

hmms, now having gracehaven outting.

it's been so long since i posted.

guess my blog is died le.

so not much thing to say.

left about 2 more weeks to get cut.

so will be out soon.

broke up with GIMBOON

but still can't forget him. i guess

really dun feel like having anymore relationship le.

if only he knew how much i had done for him.

if only things wont turn out that way.

i've never love a guy so much before. but his the first

maybe this is what people always say, true love huh?

how much can i wait? although, it isn't long but at least i'm really love him

he just wanted to ignore me.

is like what the hell.

ireally get sick and tired of waiting

but dunno why i can't stop myself to love him and look at him

why? i really dunno.

memories keep flashes back. our memories.

can't anyone replace him?

i hate this fcuking feeling.

i really hope he will just say that he still love me.

i'm tired of waiting.

hmm, just feel like pouring all my feelings out.

guess it's impossible for us.

DEAR, I STILL LOVE YOU

2009-02-20T11:49:00.003+08:00

HELLO!

guess my blog is already died.

but please bear with it for another 2 months.

i guess.

cause i had been cut for fresh case.

so no choice.

but here to update somethings which is very important to me.

i had break with my boyfriend already. at 27 january.

super sad larhs. really didn't mean to do that.

had been waited for him for about 3 weeks already.

he still dun wanna patch and say N level as an excuse.

but no matter what, it's my fault.

so i'm going to wait for him as long as i could.

whether his feeling will fade not, i dunno.

but hope not lorhs.

i really love him alot.

yesterday, finally got the chances to talk to him.

sound like his feeling never fade at all.

but he didn't say directly. so i'm not going to take it as his feeling never fade.
but hope he really still love me.

just hope, i will wait for him lorhs.

DEAR, I REALLY LOVE YOU ALOT.

still waiting for you.

2009-01-25T21:21:00.003+08:00

HELLO!!!

today is the most happy day of my life...

at first, it might be quite boring..

cause early in the morning, MY BOYFRIEND and I went to meet JIAXING& JONATHAN.

as i promised JONATHAN that i would play majong with him.

just for fun larhs. no money is involve.

end up, i win several times.

but JIAXING wanted to meet YANTING at serangoon.

so MY BOYFRIEND and I accompany JIAXING to look for YANTING.

we slacked for awhile and took a cab back home.

for our REUNION DINNER.

every year, it just the same.

STREAMBOAT. same INGREDIENTS.

but when i log in to my friendster, i was kind of shock.

cause MY KORKOR, DEWEI came out from boys home.

i was so stunned by the comment that he wrote for me.

heard form ANDY, his brother that he will be out TOMORROW morning.

i dropped my number, hopefully he would call me.

trying to find sometime TOMORROW to go down serangoon and look for him.

BUT... i had to go back GRACEHAVEN tomorrow to report (i guess)

after that, i will be going to my father side REUNION DINNER.

STRESSED UPP!!!

but as long as i could talk to him, i'm quite happy after all.

so let's pray that he would call me the next morning.

so now staying at home and do nothing.

kind of FUSS UP but my god brother yesterday.

cause he was rejected by a girl again.

he isnt a good looking guy, trying to advice him.

he treat me like nothing and thought thta i am just a SMALL KID.

now i guess we had to break off relationship with him.

CAN'T STAND HIS ATTITUDE LARHS!!!!

so that's enough for today.

P.S FOR LIM DE WEI.

you must be good alright? i really miss you badly. SORRY THOUSANDS AND MILLIONS TIMES. i cant accompany you for your first TIME OFF which i agreed to.but i promise that i will meet you some other days. i'm fine out here, just that memories that we spend together in the past started to flash back. just cant wait to meet you. HOPE YOU WILL COOL DOWN IN ANY SITUATION. HOMELEAVE more important. TAKECARE loads of care. MEI IS HERE TO SUPPORT YOU!

IMPORTANT: please dun miss understand me. i never try to HONG! cause this is my god brother that had been through with me for 3 years. been waiting for him to come out since last year. so its natural de. but dun worry, i still loves MY BOYFRIEND~

so DEAR, dun get upset alright? DEAR DEAR still loves you

2009-01-24T22:44:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

guess my blog is getting died huh?

anyway, here to update somethings...

this week we are ok with XIONG le.

talking things out and everything is SETTLED lurhs.

so coming to today's issue

suppose i should be coming out tomorrow for the CHINESE NEW YEAR.

but all thanks to AHMA, i was out now.

THANKS AHMA!!!

so my father brought me out from GRACEHAVEN.

& he fetch me back home.

but on our way, we QUARRELLED again.

cause of a STUPID phone.

hate quarrelling with him.

seems like everything i'm always at fault.

he just dun seems to understand me well.

i tried my best to be in good term with him.

but seems like our HOROSCOPE clash or something

whenever we see each other, we will quarrel 100%

ok so stop this topic le.

so today is DESMOND's birthday.

when to PLAZA SINGAPURA with MY BOYFRIEND

met JIAXING,JONATHAN,GUANYI,DESMOND and JUN WEN first

after that, me, MYBOYFRIEND and JUN WEN when to buy cake

i went to look around and brought 2 shirt for JONATHAN and DESMOND

waited for UNO,CHOCOLATE,YUN XUAN and STANLEY then headed to PARKLANE

cause the rest wanted to go and play pool.

UNO planned to give DESMOND a surprise.

so we reached there and sing birthday song for JONATHAN and DESMOND.

cake didn't manage to eat, ended up having cake fight.

kind of heart pain sia.

$42 fly away.

but at least it exchanged with smiles that we couldn't see everyday.

so its still worth it.

after that, we went to play pool for awhile.

after that, everybody headed back home.

planning to go DENLEY house to stay overnight.

but end up, because of safety...

we changed our plans.

it's the best thing not to go.

actually, MY BOYFRIEND wanna go.

but some sort of quarrel with him.

he just now called me and tell me,

HIM NOT GOING.

so kind of happy.

but it wasn't for me.

cause he said DESMOND not going.

so he didn't wanna go.

but anyway, at least we make the right choice.

MY BOYFRIEND REALLY GROWN UP LE....

P.S did took pictures with CHOCOLATE.but i had no phone, so can't take the pictures from her.

2009-01-10T22:13:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i blog.

but in between this period, many things had happen...

drifted with my XIONG...

sometimes, i really dun understand what she is thinking.

she had changed alot.

compared with the past and now.

i really dun understand why.

just because of a guy she liked, who name AHBOY.

i thought our relationship is strong.

but i was wrong about it.

just beacuse of this AHBOY, you could neglect us.

you treated us like SPACE TYRES.

when you need us, you came and look for us.

when there is NEWS of AHBOY.

you kick us a side and talk to those people.
WHY??!!!???

once, you told us that we can't drift.

i believe and even promised you.

in the end?

what we got is not what i expected.

we never wanted to be like this.

but it's you who prove us that we should do this.

what happen?

is a guy really that important than us?

i think YES barhs.

XIONG, do you really change so fast?

or you are just the same just that we had never seen before?

just a short period of time, things had gone so bad.

i'm really very disappointed in you.

you lied to me and even broke our promise.

maybe its true like what people said.

PROMISE ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN.

i really had nothing to say after all.

all i could say is, i really miss the days we had together.

now i really understand that a one year plus relationship is never be able to compare with a guy.

thanks alot for everything.

you had proven me wrong.

i shouldn't had believe you.

just alittle thing like this could even affected us.

from the beginning, everything is just an entertainment.

nothing is TRUE!!!

XIONG i could only say is THANKS.

i guess we won't be able to go out like the past anymore.

our friendship isn't the same anymore.

i really regretted all the tears that i had drop for you.

i was so stupid but now things had change,

EVERYTHING HAD CHANGE AND SO DO YOU....

2008-12-24T22:03:00.003+08:00

SORRY FOR ALL THE PREVIOUS HOMELEAVE THAT I CAN'T POST.

due to my computer is SPOIL.

anyway, today just came out from GRACEHAVEN.

but suppose MY BOYFRIEND should fetch me.

but he was late for 3 MINUTES...

so i went back home all alone..

didn't expect that he was actually waiting for me out??!!!!

so end up i met MY BOYFRIEND near my block.

we went to slack around and went down to CHINATOWN

to sing K-STER... with XIONG,APPLE,SIAOBAOBAO,AHSONG,UNO,JIAXING and JONATHAN.

suppose we wanted to call YANTING to come along.

but it was too far for her, so we just enjoy with ourselves.

i really enjoy alot.

after that, we went to had our dinner nearby

as we were all HUNGRY TO DEAD.

we went brought SNOW SPRAY.

it was SUPER CHEAP larhs.

1 for $2 and 3 for $5!!!!

UNO brought 7!!!!

then me and SIAOBAOBAO chup money to buy 3...

so we were SPRAYING each other on our way to the MRT STATION.

XIONG took different direction from us.

but slowly one by one had to apart.

until it left only ME,MY BOYFRIEND,AHSONG and SIAOBAOBAO.

on our way, AHSONG AND SIAOBAOBAO quarrel AGAIN!!!!!

so we were so bored that we took some photos...

so we drop at aljunied as MY BOYFRIEND wanted to return his phone to his sis's friend.

after that, we took a bus home.

he sent me back and went home straight.

TOMORROW IS CHRISTMAS!!!

MERRY CHRIISTMAS...

2008-12-16T18:10:00.002+08:00

HELLO !

guess my blog is dead...

but there is a reason.

CAUSE MY COMPUTER IS SPOIL

alright, this week homeleave is SHUANG de lorhs.

one week lerhs.

dun play play horhs.

but also kind of boring larhs.

so today, me and MY BOYFRIEND went to meet JONATHAN at JIAXING's house

after that, we went to BUGIS to accompany MY BOYFRIEND to buy clothes and i brought a HOODIES( sorry! dunno how to spell)

brought it for $10.

HOODIES is getting cheaper and cheaper

hmms, so we went to PARKLANE to play pool and GUESS WHAT??!!!

i lost to TWO GUYS sia.

SUPER BULLY HORHS!!!

but heng! at first say LOSER PUNCH.

but in the end, spilt...

so i wasn't that bad.

then JONATHAN went back to GEYLANG.

while me and MY BOYFRIEND went to meet HIS SISTER.

OHHH!!! BEFORE I FORGOT...

TODAY MY BOYFRIEND DROP THE FOOD AT MCDONALD AND I HAVEN ATE YET.

HAHAHAHAHAH!

that's the joke of the day.

so now at lan shop with MY BOYFRIEND and HIS SISTER.

tomorrow going to JURONG POINT.

2008-11-29T14:38:00.003+08:00

NOW HOMELEAVE LE...

yesterday it's so BORING!!!

MY BOYFRIEND didn't come out.

i had to stay at home for THE WHOLE DAY!!!

can't even sleep at night...

is like WHAT THE HELL!!!

i could only get to sleep for 3 hours.

but early in the morning, i woke up at 6.30

get ready and when to fetch MY BOYFRIEND from hostel.

suppose to take a bus there, but there was a CRAZY UNCLE.

came and fetch me there as he is a taxi uncle

he somehow wanna know me and even wanna give me a sum of money.

but i some sort of rejected.

AHYA! LONG STORY....

so i went to parklane and play lan lorhs.

nothing better to do.

before that, when to fu lu shou to change my buddha casing.

NO LIFE!!!!

later going back home at 5.30 to prepare somethings.

so i guess i will update it after everything...

BACK TO UPDATE...

it was so fun as many people came and help me with the SURPRISE

TAT CHANG, CECILIA, APPLE,JIAXING and JONATHAN

at first, i thought i wont be successful but things really work up well.

MY BOYFRIEND also look happy.

so here are the photos i had took...

2008-11-22T22:19:00.005+08:00

HELLO!!!

today early in the morning went to meet MY BOYFRIEND

cause he need to go back to GRACEHAVEN for program.

i waited for him with ASHLEY

but things really goes wrong as XIONG and him got problem

i really dunno what's wrong

maybe it's just a conflict

so JIAXIN,DESMOND,GUANYI,APPLE,MY BOYFRIEND,XIONG,SIAOBAOBAO,JIEMIN and YINGYING went to GRANDLINK

the guys went to play DOTA

while the girls went to play pool

it's kind of fun but there's this girl came into the image

MY BOYFRIEND dunno this girl.

but dunno why i just felt so JEALOUS

i told him, i dun like that girl.

YOU KNOW WHAT HE SAY?

then your problem larhs.

it really hurts alot.

i mean first, he ps me again.

i kept quiet after that, THE GIRL

i really cry sio.

but at least, i had the gusts to talk it out.

something SUPER FUNNY HAPPEN

JACQUELINE PEK FALL DOWN.

HAHAAHAHAHAHAA.

so after that, we went to GEYLANG

to had our dinner.

MY BOYFRIEND'S GOD SISTER CAME!!

i really go crazy at that point of time.

she still tried to touch MY BOYFRIEND'S HEAD.

but heng, he know how to automatic.

then when everybody heading home.

we went to the same old place

but things isn't the same like the past.

the place is so SPOOKY!!!!!

so we just went home.

2008-11-21T22:02:00.002+08:00

it's been so long since i went home

FINALLY, MY BOYFRIEND is out from hostel.

went out with him and his friends to eat ROTI PRATA.

after that, we went to slack around.

i really was touch by what he said to me

i love him alot larhs.

he told me he still love me

we do talk our heart out.

it really make me feel more SECURE

THANKS DEAR!!!

today nothing much.

2008-10-28T12:33:00.002+08:00

I'M UPDATING MONDAY THINGY.

early in the morning, i and JACQ was so turn off
by CAMILLA and AHSONG lorhs.
we kind bomb their phone just to wake them up sia.
end up, i manage to bomb CAMILLA up.
but for AHSONG, i failed to do so...
so we went to prepare.
just as the very last minute..
AHSONG called me and i asked him to come to EAST COAST
as JACQ is super ANGRY..
so we meet at EAST COAST at around 2 plus.
then when we wanted to rent the BICYCLE.
it's raining...
so we went to KFC and saw KENNETH CHONG.
i keep disturb him about the stupid photo sia.
so we waited for the rain stop and CAMILLA helped me to pay for the BICYCLE.
actually is one hour+ one hour= 2 hours.
but end up, cause it was raining. we got 4 hours=$6.
we cycle in the rain like nobody business.
but it was fun. when i wrote MY BOYFRIEND name on the sand.
after that, JACQ & CAMILLA.
video me and create a video for MY BOYFRIEND.
it really is funny..
but sad, they didn't wanna send to me as they claim that it was their PRODUCTION.
i was like what the hell..
so after that, we keep disturb people lorhs.
e.g BANGALA...
so at night, we went to MARINE PARADE
and eat after that, we went home le.

2008-10-28T12:16:00.002+08:00

I'm updating sunday's thing.

early in the morning, i waited for JIN ER and JACQ to look for me.
as we are going to the WILLIAM BOOTH CHURCH.
which is at BUKIT TIMAH.
actually, thought that we will reach there in time.
but to our surprise, we were kind of late lorhs.
so we half-way took a cab there.
it was so unresonable lorhs.
cause we were wearing skinny jeans.
the staff said that we could wear, but when UNCLE RAYMOND saw it.
he almost wanna cut us cause of that.
but when i asked my mum to bring me a skirt.
she refuse and we quarrel.
i even receive a call from MY BOYFRIEND sia.
he called me and i was kind of happy but also afraid
AFRAID that i will get cut for the jeans thingy.
i was like what the fcuk larhs
in the end, i changed my jeans with one of the NEW GIRLS.
then went to the stupid movie gala.
it wasn't a VERY NICE SHOW.
but sad thing is that, we had to go back to GRACEHAVEN and ask our PARENTS to fetch us home.
it was so TROUBLESOME!!!
after that, i went out with JACQ and CAMILLA plus their BOYFRIEND.
we went to ANG MO KIO to look for JOANNA.
then we saw APPLE.
so we went to slack around.
then i and APPLE went to take TRAIN.
i was all along IRRITATING HIM....
asking him about MY BOYFRIEND non-stop..
i even ask him to bring XIONG along to EAST COAST.
UNFORTUNATELY, he told me that he was book.
by XIONG...
so i was like ok.
cause i dun wanna be the spoiler. let them have their own world.
HAHHAHAHA

2008-10-25T23:11:00.003+08:00

TODAY EARLY IN THE MORNING...
i wen to XIONG's house as we had to go back to gracehaven after that.
so i went to her house to see the last kiss again.
is like so nice larhs.
after that, i went to meet my daddy.
it's kind of shocking larhs.
so i asked him to help me top up my handphone.
we were talking till i cry out sia.
i dunno what happen to me.
but alot of things flows through my mind.
so around 2 plus, we went to gracehaven de mama tiam
to meet XIONG's BOYFRIEND = APPLE
they were like some sort of quarrel larhs.
but how i hope MY BOYFRIEND is around too
butwhen we were killing our time.
we saw KAI LING & AUNTY SERINE.
we were like OMG!!! as they were hugging each other
bu heng! they are not SHOOT KIAS~
so it should be alright.
after that, we went in ( thinking that is ahma working)
so we didn't surrender our phone.
today i still thought that JOASH got go S'PORE FLYERS.
but halfway, UNCLE RAYMOND dun allow him to go.
sad right? & i can't get the letter
WHAT THE FCUK?!!
but i passed mine to RICHARD lurhs
so today is so fun larhs.
but kind of bored too.
cause people keep treating us like kids
then we can't even use our phone
but after that, erjiu fetch me back from there.

2008-10-24T21:43:00.002+08:00

TODAY HOMELEAVE TO NEXT TUESDAY...

but it's so boring lorhs.

cause WITHOUT MY BOYFRIEND!

i super miss him but end up, he still got 2 more weeks to get cut.

is like what the fcuk larhs

i really dun understand why he wanna do this to me lorhs.

he promise me so many things but end up, he didn't fufil it lorhs.

i misses the days when we are together during homeleave.

i misses so many things larhs.

i still remember you will always send me regards.

but now, you treated me so cold

i wanna get angry with you.

but i can't. WHY?

i dun understand.

you meant alot in my heart. but what am i to you?

am i nothing anymore.

i'm afraid that your feeling might fade.

i'm so scared.

i really hope you can faster come out, so that i can talk things out.

tomorrow going back to gracehaven for program at 4pm.

2008-10-20T12:49:00.002+08:00

I'm BACK!

hmms, MY BOYFRIEND still haven came out from TIME OUT ROOM.

wondering how is he sia.

heard from the NIGHT STAFF that he still alright.

but last night, when PRIYA went to the A block TIME OUT ROOM

she didn't saw him. haiis.

plus heard from people that they are having QUARANTINE.

WHAT THE HELL!

it's already 1 week since i last saw him.

i really dunno why do he had to HURT me so badly sia.

why does people had to be so self-centered??

what i did is for his own good.

but what i get in return is NOTHING

do i really have to blame EVERYTHING on me?

sometimes, i was wondering. do he still love me like the past?

my answer is NO!!!

maybe i really lost trust in him lurhs.

i need time to heal everything

but he kept hurting me non-stop.

I HATE THE FEELING!!!

i need him badly. but he wasn't there for me.

what should i do?

i'm so confuse.

i tried many ways to numb myself but I JUST CAN'T!!!

i'm hurt by you. i even cried for you.

till now, my tears are just too dry to drop anymore.

if i could wish upon a star.....

1.I WOULD WISH THAT YOU WILL NEVER BREAK YOUR PROMISE.

2.LOVE ME LIKE THE PAST.

3.BE BY MY SIDE WHEN I NEED YOU.

2008-10-19T08:03:00.003+08:00

yesterday, MY BOYFRIEND didn't come out.
all because he SMUGGLE CIGARETTE and get caught
end up in TIME OUT ROOM
i super worried for him larhs
i duno understand why he had to do this to me sia
but anyway, i went to JIAHUI'S birthday party
SUPPOSE i should have bring MY BOYFRIEND along
i saw so many couples together, i just feel so jealous
i just feel so disappointed.
i brought 2 bottles of tiger beer
but the others brought more of it.
so i kept drinking and drinking
i just dun get it, why CAN'T I GET DRUNK?!
at the very last, at most, i could only feel dizzy
maybe as what people said, when you feel sad
you can't get drunk barhs
i just vomit everything out
just hope that MY BOYFRIEND is with me, den i would have a shoulder to lean on
i super miss him larhs
i even hit the wall lorhs.
he still ask ASHLEY to send me regards plus he said he will not do this anymore.
he even said sorry, it's like if he really will learn
i dun mind but thinks isn't the same anymore
you are not the BOYFRIEND i use to have
i love you but what i get all the time is HURT.
i dun understand why you have to do this to me.
i just want you to learn your mistake
be a good boy.
this week also dunno you will cut for how long
maybe 2- 4 weeks barhs
our anniversary is gone, we can't celebrate together le

2008-10-11T22:27:00.002+08:00

JUST CAME BACK.

today go out SUPER boring sia.

early in the morning at 7am, i woke up and meet MY BOYFRIEND

cause he need to go back GRACEHAVEN for dance program

so i waited for him outside with KL

after that, we went to meet JIA XING and his friends

then we went to whampo and eat

atually, suppose to meet ASHLEY

but end up, he halfway say dun wanna come

so we took MRT to hougang and take bus to PASIR RIS PARK

as it was my LAOPO'S BIRTHDAY

but halfway, ASHLEY at ARAP ST got taiji

so we went there, when we reach there

he said taiji sua lurhs

is like so FCUKING ANGRY LARHS

den LAOPO thought i bluff her sia. we almost quarrel sio

end up , i just went with MY BOYFRIEND and JIA XING + JONATHAN(i dun really know this guy)

so we slack around and i drink tiger beer.

2 cans nia. den i cannot le.

SUPER WEAK SIA. i long time never drink le marhs

after awhile, we head back to whampo to that JONATHAN'S HOUSE
i saw MY BOYFRIEND's GAN MEIS.

they were like playing so happily larhs.

i was kind of JEALOUS larhs.

almost feel like hitting the girl

but i manage to cool myself down.

after while nia. we leave and brought our dinner

we were pinic at the 3rd level void deck again.

awhile later, we left home lerhs

tomorrow i still have to go back gracehaven

2008-10-10T21:22:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK !!!!

today homeleave suppose to be 4pm derhs.

but my mum had to work, that why she came and fetch me at 6 plus going to be 7.

i immediately called MY BOYFRIEND. guess what, he just met WILFRED

to collect my phone from WILFRED.

i took a bus back home.

but halfway, it was really too long.

so i drop off at Aljunied MRT station sio.

furthermore, i saw the bus stop was selling chiong cigarette.

so i brought one packet.

when i was smoking.

got 3 guys came and told me not to smoke.

i was like HUH?!?!?!?!

i dun care at all lorhs.

so i met MY BOYFRIEND so he passed me my phone

after that, we slack awhile

but XIONG message me and tell me that her boyfriend

APPLE ABSCOND AND HE IS NOT COMING BACK!!

sian. tomorrow MY BOYFRIEND had to reach GRACEHAVEN at 9am

cause he need to go for the DANCE

2008-10-05T12:01:00.003+08:00

HELLO! GOOD MORNING.
just woke up, guess time i woke up?
11plus sia. SO LATE.
my dad called me and i didnt pick up, hence she called my sister.
walau! yesterday, i was talking to MY BOYFRIEND and he said i would wake up at around 9 plus
but turns out, i woke up at 11 plus.
it's alright larhs. at least, my dad came back lorhs.
so now my dad is heading to come and look for us.
he said he brought SHIRT & SHORTS for me. i was wondering
will it be nice?
P.S: 2 MORE DAYS TO OUR ANNIVERSARY!!

2008-10-04T22:08:00.005+08:00

BACK TO POST AGAIN!!!
today i meet MY BOYFRIEND at around 11 -12 plus
we went to BUGIS and shop around.
i thought of buying him our 3rd month anniversary
BUT I WASN'T SURE WHAT TO BUY!
so we when to the watch shop, i told him to choose one
as his watch that i brought for him previously was spoil.
but he refuse to. so we just walk around and see
he said he wanted to see bag
so we when to a few shops to look around
FINALLY, he choose a bag, it was quite nice
so i brought for him at $35
CHEAP HUH?
so after that, we when to POPULAR to buy foolscape for BARGAY
then we went to slack at a 5th level playground
kind of cool sia. then i started to ask him squeeze his white head out.
is like so JIALAT lorhs.
SUPER MANY. THE MORE HE SQUEEZE THE MORE IT POP OUT.
so i bring him to BUGIS AGAIN!
we went to COLD STORAGE and i brought a pimple squeezer
after that, i went to SASA and buy remove black & white head sticker and peel of mask for him
cause i was hungry, we went to MCDONALD and ordered grilled chicken foldover
we took away and head back to the same old place again
then we had our lunch + dinner there.

it's kind of romantic but there is a guy
so we ate and i helped him to squeeze his black & white heads
HE ALMOST CRIED!!!
but he still manage to tolerate through everything
I'M SO PROUD
then we head back to my house and played badminton
but when we were slacking
there is a group of malays sitted beside us
so we left as it's kind of irritating
as for the malays, they were speaking in malay
saying that we were afraid of them, that why we leave
it's like SO CHILDISH of them
hais. simply dun understand what are they thinking.
but cause of time,we just when home

P.S: DEAR, HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!

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